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oct 04 2012 theimmaschine


My Internet Bloggerz ButtBuddiez over at Eradica were talking about this movie a lot recently, figured this was The Lord sending me a signal. Because I am an ADDultKidz (See What I Did There, hahahaha) I found the movie a little slow and had to break it up into 3 viewings. Plus I’ve been very low-T & low-energy lately. But it was all good, Charlton Heston was a good man’s man; but what I was surprised by was that his roommate/BFF was a Huge Hooknosed Jew named “Sol Roth.” In this future, Jews were punished all the same as whites and they could fight together against a Common Corporate Enemy.

There was too much of “Greedy Corporations are Destroying The Earth” for my liking. But it did have good themes of an Evil Government-Corporate Conglomerate, and hordes of rioting masses being dependent on The Govt for their food ration, welfare checks, etc.

I especially liked how the Hordes Of Rioters were literally picked-up by the “scoops”, big garbage trucks that actually scooped up 10 people at a time and then dumped them in the back, for god knows what: imprisonment, forced labor, torture, starvation, processing into Soylent Green. The other real good angle was that Young Wimminz were bought and sold as “Furniture” that accompanied Luxuy Elite Apartments. You were rich & powerful enough to live there, a young pretty servant girl came with it. Of COURSE you got to bang her in the A.

You also got hot showers and air conditioning and towels and fruit and if you were really lucky, meat. Strawberries for example were $150 a jar. Most normal people ate Soylent Green and Soylent Yellow and processed cheap food supposedly made out of soybeans and plankton, but even those were depleting. New York City has 40 million people in 2020.

The Church provided a legit Charity but they were strained beyond what they could provide, churches packed with moaning proles.

I was surprised the mobs weren’t MORE violent. Like instead of a stairway in a tenement crowded with starving, sleeping, pathetic whites, where’s all the brownz and crimmigrants getting hopped up and homicidal on CHEAP DRUGZ? So yeah this movie could really benefit from a Rightist Reboot 2012, like that will ever happen!

So, pretty good, but I didn’t LUV it as much as I thought I would. Maybe I was just in a Bad Mood, which is a shame if my Bad Moods are reducing the Effectiveness of my Intelligence and my Patriotic Action. Then I have to take Any Nonviolent Means Necessary to Get Happy!

I rented it alongside


to really compare old-skool dystopia with new-skool dystopia 4 postmarxist adultkidz. Jenniferz Lawlzrenzezlozzl certainly is a beautiful young gurl in the peak of her youth and I would eat peanut-butter-covered bananaz out of her Butt. The movie was competently made and I didn’t get bored in the first 50% (which is all I’ve seen upon writing this Review), but it was better than I expected (so far) in terms of Entertainment Value. Now “Katniss Everdeen” as I’ve always said, is a Horrible Whore name, and “Peeta Mellark” is a Balllicking Faggot name. The names are supposed to sound futuristic and kewl but they’re gay. Not a big deal, other than so many people don’t see this.

The bigger deal is that Katniss is Tuffer than Peeta. You have a Beautiful Girl playing the Masculine Hero role, and even Tomboys aren’t supposed to be THAT masculine. Though she cares about Honor and Doing The Right Thing, you just KNOW that she wouldn’t care about Cuckolding Her Men or Murdering her own children. The Modern Wimminz and the Future Wimminz is a COLD Wimminz. This might even be worse than the “Overemotional” Wimminz. Because you can be Underemotional and still have a Raging Hamster. It’s honestly pretty interesting bc I LIKE Tomboy Girls. But they need to be slightly Feminine insofar as they don’t have Big Whore Potential. And there’s nothing in here suggesting Katniss would not be a Huge Whore. And that’s just Not Right! In My Hunger Games, Honorable Warrior Women are Also Nonpromiscuous! I wouldn’t be surprised if TIUTA55-niss has Blown every (handsome) boy in District 12!

I guess there’s good themes like don’t get wrapped up in TV sensationalism and use Reality TV to KillKidz; don’t give up too much Power to the Govt; don’t get distracted by Bread and Circuses; Fight for What’s Right; and I did respond pretty favourably to the concept of Young Men AND Young Women in the Prime of Their Youth being sent out to KILL EACH OTHER. 24 people with only one survivor. I wasn’t sure how it worked, but that’s how it works, and that’s pretty good. And men can kill women, women can kill men, in a Pangender Bloodbath, despite them being trotted out to look Sexy in the pre-game pageant.

The Pangender Bloodbath IMHO was a good metaphor for what’s going on here and now: Wimminz kill themselves with Promiscuity and Immorality and Decadence; and they also kill men by taking Jobs from them. And fundamentally it feeeeeeeeels morally wrong for men and women to compete against each other so viciously; men and women Should Complement and Support each other rather than be each other’s Natural Enemies, fighting to the death for fame, power, sex, companionship, and even just mere survival.

So yeah, having Girls in the Games opens up that interesting angle. Interesting to see where that goes. Probably nowhere good, hahaha, but the first hour of the first movie was promising. And Donald Sutherland is and always will be a b4d4ss. RECOGNIZE.

Verdict: I didn’t find it as Morally Offensive as I expected, but again, it’s only the first hour of the first movie. And I WILL be VERY (pleasantly!) surprised if Whoreniss doesn’t fall off the c0ck-wagon at SOME point. That b!tch is a ticking time-bomb. But you’d LIKE for her to be a NAWALT because she is so young and purty and healthy and LOOKS kinda like a nawalt.

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I try to treat myself to Good Book from Amazon every week or every two weeks, something hedonistic and pleasurable, some mind-food, something to Recharge the batteries, positive reinforcement schedule, etc, since drugs and alcohol are bad, my careeeeeer is stalled, lifting weights would be great but I’m too lazy, and meaningless decadent jewsex with decadent sluts in the harem has lost its appeal – and I’ve taken a vow of Chastity so as to Practice What I Preach & be honest and unhypocritical. I usually look for Cheap Books (1 cent plus 3.99 shipping.) This leads to me buying good books which I end up not really feeeeeeeling like reading at the moment, for example Thomas Sowell’s “Vision of the Anointed” which I plan to get to properly but so far I’ve only skimmed. Then there was “Bell Curve”, that turned out to be more up my alley at this moment in my Intellectual Development. This week I decided to Splurge and spend Big Money on a book I reeeeeally wanted, even though it was consid more expensive. This was a good idea, as I got a Big Mindboner when the book arrived Lightning Quick from the white-friendly bookstore. (I woulda bought it direct from Counter-Currents, BUT the seller Lighthouse Literature will be closing its doors soon, they had a cheaper price, I wanted to support them, AND I entered Amazon through the Counter-Currents “gateway” (link) to give them some “affiliate marketing” which they apparently like. Not sure how much money that brings in for them.)

Short book, I took about 90 minutes and skimmed the whole thing, read the first couple essays in full, and so far, so Great! Very satisfied, very glad I spent the big bucks, very worth it, should do this more often. I really relate with Johnson as a Soft-Spoken Polite Niceguy who initially wanted to do an Academic Career. He lives in SAN FRANCISCO and his voice is kinda faggy and beta and niceguy.  since I’m much more Homosexual-friendly than the Avg Far Rightist, this might be a good thing for me. Also, one of the Essays therein argues that WNs need not be anti-homosexual per se because One’s Sexuality is not a foundational part of one’s identity, and the notion that it IS, is of course, a product of the Freudian and then later decadent sex-obsessed postmoderism; and Johnson reminds us of the Manly, Masculine, Heroic, Warrior, Prinicipled Heterosexual Spartans and Greeks and Romans who used to Bugger Boys, and then go on to be more-or-less heterosexual husbands and fathers. Sexual Orientation is not the be-all end-all of Your destiny, and to put it at the forefront of Your Life makes you a decadent sex addict.

(Kinda ironic that Postmodernism emphasizes that everything is a Spectrum and nothing is black-and-white, except for the rather notable exception of Sexuality! Although yes there is the kinsey scale that emphasizes a spectrum, or the idea of “Wimminz Have FLUUUUUID Sexuality!” But by that argument, maybe some homosexual men might be less homosexual than they’ve been brainwashed by the homosex-loving media/culture to believe!)

Johnson talks about A RAFT of interesting issues: Deep Ecology, Alan Watts, West Coast San Fran hippie Dippie and Niceguy Racialists, Race Mixing, immigration, practical solutions, commentary on Harold Covington, SWPL and Christian Lander, Books and Movies of interest (“A Conversation on Race” by Craig Bodeker (not on netflix!) ) Racialist Awakenings, alternate histories, jews, anglo saxons and then later white euro immigrants: slavs & italians; what is white, and the great variation among whites like northern europeans vs dravidians in india; a bracing review of Jim Goad’s “Sh!t magnet” and the pros and cons of Goad (pro: good satirist/writer ; con: decadent, narcissistic, immoral); plenty of talk on “decadence”; a great “primer” on introductory ideas for the Newbie Like Me or You.

Would have liked more on his personal Awakening. The Awakening is an important thing IMHO, possibly just because I’m in the middle of it RIGHT NOW. Hell it might be in there, I haven’t read the whole book.

But yes I like his Niceguy yet not-too-sentimental or fluffy approach. Like me, he is staunchly nonviolent, and he comments on some of the more violent WN literature (“all race traitors must be killed!”) but oooops I jerked-off to an attractive 18-year old black girl one time, looks like I must die.

This is not to say Johnson’s message is “soft” or “watered-down”. It’s just nonviolent, and very cool-headed. Cool as a cucumber.

Again I want more on Johnson’s life: what moved him to the PhD and academic career, what made him throw all that away for WN; I ASSUME his PhD is in literature or philosophy or sommat but he doesn’t say. Also I like that he is “tolerant” or at least friendly and open to Christians as well as homosexuals. Yes, “Tolerance” is generally Bad, but I agree with him here where Christians and Homosexuals can be valuable Whites!

He talks about his friend who was instrumental in his own awakening; this friend VERY, VERY reasonably wanted a mate who was not corrupted by Western Marxist Feminism and Decadence (heh my “new” fave word), so his solution was to marry a Filipina. This I find VERY interesting given my interests in Finding A Good Mate – what if All White Wimminz are Corrupt, and White Men who want a good mate have to look for Nonwhites, because most Nonwesterners are Nonwhite? This is a VERY valid concern. So that marriage did not work out, but apparently the guy did not get hosed either; and he ended up marrying a white woman and having 5 children. Johnson did not clarify if this White Woman was a Decadent Wimminz but I assume he wouldn’t even bring up the anecdote if she were.

Then I thought: Given the choice between a Good Nonwhite Mate and a Bad White Mate, what the hell do you choose? Considering: no matter how good the nonwhite might be, you still have to deal with a RAFT of complications from her FAMILY and CULTURE that could be enough to ruin a Good Marriage. Johnson also mentions the idea of the person with ideas of racial purity but they don’t get to put it into practice because they never mate; versus the person that does mate, but interracially. I have to read deeper here. Matt Forney has raised the VERY important issue of: yes whites are slowly dying out and we need to have more white babies, but Most White Wimminz are Decadent Trash who aren’t WORTH having Babies with – is it better to produce White Trash, or White Nothing?

This is where I bring in “my” solution of Voluntarily Single Fathers. And since they can choose their mate/egg, they should choose the healthiest one within their race that they can, then bust their 4ss doing the work of both Traditional Father AND Traditional Mother, because Wimminz sure as hell aren’t going to.

Where’s MY awakening coming from? In short: The DECADENCE of Western White Wimminz. I’ve been concerned with that for a LONG time. THEN when I started reading Eradica via Firepower, I couldn’t help but notice Ryu. I blame Ryu, for talking about WN all the time, hahahaha. I was jolted and thought, “WAIT a minute, how did we get from Decadent Wimminz to this scary paranoid violent idea of WHITE NATIONALISM? Isn’t that a bit of a stretch?” And as I read more, I find maybe it’s not. AND that WN is not necessarily so scary and violent and paranoid.

PLUS I’ve been reading Counter-Currents for quite some time, been interested in the Far Right and Alternative/New Right for some time, it’s just that the “White” component never really Clicked for me until now. To Ryu’s credit, he is a Really Provocative writer! Also, I’ve been reading Varg Vikernes’s stuff for years (“Articles” near bottom), he’s essentially a New Rightist and should get more active in that, hahaha. So I’ve never been a big stranger to the Politically Incorrect. I’ve also been Suspicious of Blacks ever since childhood because I grew up in an area where there was noticeable Racial Tension. So perhaps I’ve always been a Racialist but never really recognized myself as such.

Oh yeah. Johnson gets “The Thomas Sowell Question” out right away. Because intelligent nonliberals can’t help but run into Thomas Sowell at some point, he’s too tremendous and talented and smart not to be noticed, and then you’re even more surprised when you find out he’s BLACK. Then you think, thank GOD for Thomas Sowell, it means I’m not an Evil Racist! I CAN’T BE a racist because I really like and respect this guy! Why can’t MORE blacks be like him?”

Answer: Because he is an exceptional black. An outlier. Not an average black. And Johnson wisely also immediately mentions that just because you’re a racialist doesn’t mean you can’t appreciate INDIVIDUALS of ANY race. You can like Thomas Sowell, you can like Gustav Mahler. We kinda DO need to keep saying NAXALT because The Media portrays Racialists as Crazy Stupid Violent Gun Nuts who Always think AXALT and are too dumb and illiterate to know about Sowell. And this is JUST NOT TRUE.


More importantly, Johnson asks “is one Thomas Sowell enough to compensate for the amount of destruction Blacks have Wrought? For the amount of White Thomas Sowells they have displaced or killed?” Via Vanguard News Networks Alex Linder (and I think there’s been some controversy / falling-out with him since, gotta look into) provocative question “Because the black race produced Thomas Sowell, the white race must die?”

Though at this moment I’m still an optimist, and in my Ideal Race World, Blacks could Nurture Blacks to produce More Thomas Sowells and fewer violent thugs!

Also the idea that Nervous SWPL White “SOLICITOUSNESS” and Niceness/Politeness to blacks makes blacks feeeeeeel whites are being racist towards blacks. Just treat us like Normal People, they’re saying. Don’t give us preferential treatment. (unless it’s for jobs and educationz hahahahahahahahaha)

I would add to this that White Nationalists and Black Nationalists could probably have a more productive conversation together than Average Whites and Average Blacks. Maybe.

Johnson talks about Real and Interesting Stuff every single page. Not a gram of Turgidity or Bloatedness here. If I had the money I would have bought the Hardcover. I would buy a hardcover of every Counter-Currents book. Greg Johnson is my type of guy and I can feeeeeeeeeel a mancrush developing.

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[Note: H3ll NO I’m not awake right now! But this is for the benefit of Those In The World Who Are, hahaha, & to get Good Spreadage on my Sunday “Reader Appreciation” Posts.]


SUNDAY “READER APPRECIATION” POST! Heh one week I will stop doing this. Drive up the price, stop GIVING it away, hahaha.

Average Young Wimminz have routinely been on the receiving end of depraved sex acts most Average Young Minz can only DREAM of doing, and which they jerk-off desperately to.

Whips-out Mini Tape Recorder Alan Alda style: Great idea for depraved porno: BUKKAKE WEDDING, where the bride and groom slowly walk down the aisle, and the church is filled with big dark meathunks beating-off on and ravaging the lip-smacking bride, totally COVERING her with sperm by the time she gets up to the front and finally MARRIES the CHUMP, hahahahaha. Probably smearing a bunch of the sperm on him too, hahaha.

Not far off from the Average Modern Western WIFE, hahahaha!

(How much you bet I get invited to Weddings All The Time, haha!)

Average Wimminz have driven several Average Men crazy, or close to. Average Men have Prob not even driven ONE Average Wimminz crazy – it took a series of Nonaverage Alphas to do that.

So, Brahminz are trying to Steal/Poach Smart people from lower classes via Leet Univz/Jobz. End result of a Total Brain Drain on Non-Brahmin castes. Re my interests: a gradual dumbing-down of The Vaisya and even Upper Vaisya, my own home caste. I had a chance to go brahmin but I blew it, which only now I’m starting to see might be a great thing. the blowing, that is. So now I’m thinking, how can the Smart Vaisyas who for whatever reason REMAIN Vaisyas into Adulthood USE their smarts to HELP their Born Caste? Their PEOPLE? Starting Businesses, Creating Jobs for the Less Intelligent, Running for Local Vaisya Office, and Strengthening Vaisya Neighborhoods, of course!


Been meaning to see this for a while. Didn’t disappoint. Not a CLASSIC but a much better-than-avg movie. Memorable. Unique. Original. It’s no secret I love Norwegian Culture (Or What’s Left Of It, hrmmmm….) and will watch Norwegian movies just to hear the language and look at the Nature. Fjords and Forests and Mountains and Sognland and all that. Blame Burzum for biting me with the Norway Bug. Of course it’s all the more interesting nowadays with the Superliberal Govt, Insane Multiculturalism, Breivik, etc. But if they’re THAT “Socialist” then why aren’t they going broke like Greece or Portugal? Will that happen soon or not?

And I’ve long enjoyed Theodor Kittelsen’s artwork, again via Teh Bvmzvrz, and his Loving portrayal of Norwegian Nature and Legend, in his case, often concerning TROLLS. They really DO tell their kidz TrollStories in Norway, and it’s nice to see a Norwegian movie effectively capturing this part of Norwegian Culture. In a fun way, and not even disrespectfully. I feeeeeelt the movie honestly celebrated Trolldom, rather than saying “let’s get rid of Our Traditions and Culture to make all the new Jihadist Immigrants feel more at home.”

Character development was good, especially with the Trollhunter himself. You really grew to like him quite a bit.

And just enough humor and comic relief. Dry, but light-hearted. I wasn’t sure it was supposed to be a “horror” movie, and lemme just clarify, it definitely wasn’t. Even intended to be. That’s fine. Didn’t need to be. And it succeeded on its own merits and on its own level.

Of COURSE I wanted to tear the young Norwegian girl in half, although I don’t think she’ll age well. She looks like a slutty frog.

Not too serious, not too ridiculous, just right. goldilocks. Also not too long. And during the end credits I (correctly) guessed the band was Kvelertak even though I’d never actually HEARD them before, only READ about. Hmm. One of the more highly-touted of the young modern “black’n’roll” groups.

A good FUN movie. Didn’t think Norwegians knew how to have fun! We should all be able to appreciate that! B or B-plus.

Morality. Ethics. Respectability. Honor. Doing The Right Thing. Whatever you wanna call it, I argue it’s not complicated, AND, even among All The Cultures Of The World, they’ll 80% agree on what is right and wrong. So, Morality Is 80% OBJECTIVE, THEREFORE (QED), MORALITY IS OBJECTIVE. THERE IS ABSOLUTE RIGHT AND WRONG. GOOD AND EVIL.  Lying, cheating, stealing, jewing, murdering, raping (Even Decadent Whorez don’t Deserve To be Raepd!), non-defensive violence, sucking out a BabySlurry(tm) from your Womb thru your Cvnt/K0kHole, cheating on your husband or Boifran, making him raise another man’s child as his own….these things, chirren, are all WRONG. BAD. Here’s some examples of GOOD things: being honest; hard-working; not lying; being gentle and compassionate; walking in the other person’s shoes; empathy; sympathy; kindness; altruism, even if done selfishly. Not hurting people; Not jewing people. Not sending men to die. Get the picture yet? Nope?

Write these down on your True Believer Kollige Memorizer Flashcards for your Big Exam Then Pay Me $9000:

1. Once you know how to get it, sex can be gotten for FREE.

2. Honest Men will never want to marry a promiscuous, aka promiscuous even for One Brief Phase, Wimminz.

3. TodayzWimminz have nothing to offer other than Sex. Unless you want to Marry a Wimminz who previously gave away Sex For Free to Manny Cox (tm, BKC). Because that was in the past and she feeeeeeeeeeeeeeelz different about You. At this moment.

When I say “True Believer”, I’m being inspired by Nydwracu, who is in turn being inspired by Eric Hoffer. I read the first 20 pages of “The True Believer” and should prob just buy a copy, haha, so I can have it on-hand for the 20 years it’s gonna take me to read a little 100 page book, hahaha. Important, Profound, SMRT book though! That Hoffer was/is a HELLUVA Guy!

Fake True Believers are just as bad as Real True Believers. Atheist True Believers are even worse and closed-minded and stupid than Religious True Believers. Wimminz/Whorez are True Believers in First and Foremost Careeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerz, then Cox and Marxism.  Well, the order can be debated. All three tie in together. Add Zog in there too, of course, if you’re a “True Believer” in ZOG, hahahaha. I’ll leave that one up to You. I’m

There’s nothing inherently wrong with being a True Believer, just make sure it’s in something Morally Good, WHICH, we just established, is Objective and Not Up For Debate! Be a True Believer in Good, and then BE an AGENT of that Good!

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Not to be too narcississitc, navel-gazing, or F00KING FAGGOTY, but I was very recently (oct 2012) delivered a Huge Jaw Dropping Emotionally Traumatic Stressful SOUL-CRUSHING Life Event when a NAWALT I was in TOTAL Pedestalizing Oneitis White Knight LOVE with TORE MY HEART OUT. She was actually straightforward and honest, perhaps proving her NAWALTness, OR providing my Oneitis, either way, I can’t REMEMBER the last time a WOMAN was HONEST to me about that sort of thing.

Obv I am VERY concerned with Wimminz Morality and Honor and Nonpromiscuity, and I Rationally, Reasonably Chose Her as My One because she, by all evidence, seemed in the upper echelon of morality and nonpromiscuity. Possibly a Virgin; Possibly Asexual; I like the Asexuals; maybe even an unrealized Lesbobo(tm Chapin). But her Undersexedness and Morality understandably attracted me. I gave it an Honest Effort, A Good College Try, To the BEST of my ability. 99.999% of Wimminz prob would have given a Pity f00k by that point, which would have NOT helped me in this case. I don’t respect Pity f00k and the cvntz who give them. I aint no f00king charity case. I have a f00king HAREM I can use for SEX. I was just seeking a more traditional old-fashioned heterosexual monogamous, exclusive, long-term rel. YES I KNOW It’s a stupid thing to Search For, given Today’s Modern Wimminz. I didn’t ASK for this Woman to waltz into my life and be her nonsexual self!!

Enough of that. The larger point re this Blog is, with all my contempt and disgust of whores, the reader would be shocked that I have positive, yet romantic beta, feeeeeelingz for ANY woman at all. So NOW the gloves come off! This ONE Woman was literally THE ONE Woman in my life that kept me saying NAWALT. NAWALT because This Specific Woman I knew was Not Like That. NOW, She may still be a NAWALT, but when SMART MEN are painfully rejected, they say, “Sorry sugar t!tz, but NO we shouldn’t be Just Friends because you just tore my heart out, YA STUPID B!TCH. Have a good life but NO I don’t want to hang out with you and watch you get drunk and f00ked by more alpha guys. I aint that much of a faggot chump.” Adding to her nawaltness was that even SHE introduced the notion of Taking A Break And Having Space, when usually I have to sit the whore down and say “LISTEN, EINSTEIN,” and say what I just said two sentences ago, because they can’t get that through their dumm kvmhungry skullz.

So I will be enjoying my Time and Space, I will remember her fondly for Actually, Surprisingly, NonAveragely doing the Honest, Right, Ethical thing in this sh!tty situation, but it’s also kinda sad because I’m getting older, people my age are getting married like CRAZY, literally getting married LEFT AND RIGHT. Every day there’s a new wedding. Do the men even KNOW what they’re getting into? I used to get NAWALT Infatuation (I don’t care WHAT you say, Marxist Whores, but Nawalt Infatuations ARE True Love! see old post) every couple of years, it would be a big deal, this one was a big deal too; but the time between got longer and longer; first it was twice a year, then once a year, then once every 2 years, once every 40 years, and that brings us here, to me being a 40 year old virgin jk hahahaha. I’m under 40 and I do have a harem of filthy whores for sex….but it’s impossible to feel any old-fashioned family-building Luv for them, like I do with Nonpromiscuous, Nonsexual VIRGIN Nawalts.

So you’ll understand if I’m extra harsh Towards Wimminz for the next 3 months, hahahaha. A guy can “process” “get over” “get through” ANYTHING in Three Months. Cancer, Death of your heir, etc.

But don’t tell me she was “probably a whore anyway.” Probability-wise, yes, most wimminz ARE whores, but I CHOSE Her AFTER I started getting on my Red Pill, MRA, MGTOW, Game, Most-Wimminz-Are-Whorez “Kick”, and she had passed my Updated List of Dealbreakers…namely, phonyness, promiscuity, makeup, sexualized, sexy, trifling, reality shows, democrat, blabla. Honestly though the girl was a Virgin Unrealized Lesbian.

At this point, I wish that she had been. My “Game” wasn’t super tight, prob too much “just being myself”, but I’m pretty b4d4ss, so that shouldn’t be a problem. Yeah, I’m often too much of a NICEGUY (and I’m NOT Nice to Wh0rez, who don’t deserve niceness!) , but I AM Honest,  and DO know how to put forth enough of a signal so I’m not some beta friendzone orbiter faggot. Of course the eternal question is, “WHAT IF I had been MORE ALPHA;” or “When Will she have a FILTHY, WHORISH, One-Night-Stand with an Alpha and FINALLY Ruin Herself?” I guess it’s none of my concern unless she’s bringing home black babies for me to feed!

That’s long enough. Just letting you know I have feeeeeeelings too; AND that I’m enough of a Traditionalist that I still believe NAWALT. Heh. People are replaceable and interchangeable. JK JK JK, that what Wimminz Whores think because they’re SOCIOPATHS incapable of Having Human Relationships; But if there’s even ONE Nawalt in say this Average Vaisya City, there’s PROBABLY one more. This girl was getting kind of OLD too, that’s how SERIOUS I was! She’s PAST her PEAK, yet I didn’t CARE. Nawalt and Infatuation are powerful things that can sustain a Hetero Rel over a LIFETIME and provide the BEDROCK for GOOD STRONG FAMILIES.

I’m WAY more of a Traditionalist than Barbarossaaaa or Stardusk, even though I like them both! But I was thinking Long Term too: love and nonlegal marriage, beautiful, healthy, smart, MORAL White Babies, heirs with a Good Father AND a Good Mother.


This is gonna REALLY SUCK for my Energy / Testosterone Levels next couple of weeks, but honestly I DID want a direct yes or no answer, just to KNOW, just so I could MOVE ON. And so now I can do that. Obv I wish it worked out for the Opposite Option, but A Conclusion is better than No Conclusion, And hopefully I can use that to bounce back stronger after the initial Coma, which I’m NOT looking forward to. But I’m thankful for good friends and family and for a Manosphere of Smart, Understanding, Friendly Brother Men out there. MEN SUPPORTING MEN is a beautiful, Christlike thing. Don’t see that kind of HONOR among B!TCHES.

Good news is, I saw a young girl recently who made my eyes pop out of my head. She would REALLY raise the avg of my Harem. I’m sure she’s a filthy whore who takes lo4ds within 2 minutes and pictures to prove it, but she was young, cute, meaty, great skin. I would have REAL FUN with her, so hope to get that in the rotation, and at LEAST feel less cynical about The Rotation!

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WARNING: 1891 Wordz Music Post! Very Little overt anti-Marxist talk!


Not dumb enough to name the place or date or city or state the concert was in! might be 1000 wds just on this. Great, grand old time. Was disappointed about missing recent Moonsorrow/FinnishFolkMetalFest & hadn’t been to Metal Show in years. Full Disclosure: I’ve been huge DOWN fan since I was a Terrible Teen S’ing Anselmo’s D in Pantera. Release of DOWN II album in 2002 was a huge milestone in my Adolescent Life. By that time Down had surpassed Pantera in my mind, more in my (synonym for “wheelhouse.”) Prob had to do w me also being big fan of the New Orleans / Lousiana metal bands as well: Crowbar, Eyehategod, Acid Bath, Goatwhore, Soilent Green, who remembers the underrated Floodgate? I enjoyed the Pepper Keenan-fronted Corrosion of Conformity a lot. So Down was the best supergroup ever IMHO. Plus I was huge on Black Sabbath and Stoner Doom and Sleep and such. Never thought they would release a second album, so Down 2 was celebration. Saw them a total of 3 times over about 2002-2004. Firmly ensconced in my pantheon and will never be taken out, no matter how many crappy albums they crap out.

Because they’re NO FAKE. Couldn’t be PHONY if they tried. This was reaffirmed by this 2012 performance. If anything, they’ve gained more Magic for me because they’re healthier re drugs and alcohol. Older but more mellow. Kirk was drinking beer which slightly disappointed me because I thought he had quit because he was drinking too much, but he seemed to be drinking in moderation. Anselmo was drinking beers as well during the opening bands. Bottom line is, none of the members seemed visibly intoxicated and therefore seem to have gained the skill of drinking in moderation, for which I applaud them. Of course they prob don’t smoke “down” in moderation, but that’s ok. And I sincerely hope Jimmy Bower no longer does The Hard Stuff, but he didn’t seem like it. He was having a great time and giving off very positive Bower Power vibes.

I wouldn’t have minded just staring at Jimmy Bower all night. My love for him has only grown deeper throughout the years. The common first impression is “he keeps a beat, but nothing special”. And indeed his set is tiny as f00k. Spartan. Maybe you need to actually see him playing, and after that, you NEVER get that image out of your mind when listening to the music after. He is tremendous and is prob the Down Member I gush most loving over. I tease Anselmo for his tuff-guy attitude. Not to say Kirk and Pepper are chopped liver. Heck I used to have a huge mancrush on Pepper when I was in my COC phase and thought he was the most soulful heartfelt singer ever. I like Kirk because he is bald and chubby and short but now he has a magnificent long gray beard, he’s like father time to me, old and wise and chill but you really have to look at his stoneface to see it. It’s almost more about the MEN than the music; I appreciate each of the guys in their own special way; they each communicate their nonphonyness. I suggest you start with Bower because it’s most obvious with him moving his limbs around and making funny faces and howling with laughter and kinda like Animal the Muppet Drummer. (I’ve always wanted to Be A Drummer, and once I finally get my drum kit I swore that a couple of my biggest Personal Drum Influences would be Jimmy Bower and Varg Vikernes.) He makes playing drumz look like THE funnest thing in the world, better than having a 9000-way with 18-year-old virgins & your body covered in Fentanyl patches. If Jimmy Bower doesn’t make you want to play drums, nothing will. (IMHO.) But all the other members keep it real in their own ways too.

When I was a Teen I would idolize them like Godz, but now I see them as Real Men like you or me; men with families and children and parents and fears and worries & problems etc. Looking closely at their eyes and faces and seeing Good, Honest Men, who have certainly had their struggles and who have certainly gotten visibly Old, but with that age also came Peace and Happiness and Wisdom and Maturity and Self-Control. Very inspiring. It doesn’t even MATTER that I can’t remember any of the songs on Down III and IV, or that Down I is 9000X times better than Down II. (And in all fairness, 3 and 4 are prob GROWERS, I can say with 90% confidence.) They’re not the same Angry Young Men who did Down 1 and I don’t want them to be. They looked like they were all Doing Great and I want them to stay that way.

(Well aware I don’t REALLY know them-as-real-people, they could all be longtime child molesters like Dr Melvin Levine MD for all I know. Dirty Jailbird White Trash Junkeez who would throw their entire families under the bus for one hit of junk. But I like to think I can Read People’s Faces pretty good. Of course I realize that Marxism & ZOG has brainwashed entire generations to actually be phony without even them realizing they Are Phonies. More on that later as usual.)

The “New” bass player Patrick Bruders fit in very well like I thought he would. When I was a HUGE Goatwhore fan, I saw that band for a very pivotal, monumental, shows I’ll never forget. Short List of Best Shows Ever. I was mancrushing on Sammy and Ben from GW but Pat seemed the most approachable, and was very friendly and down-to-earth with us, joining us for a “cigarette” outside, giving small talk that was neither spergery nor annoyingly extraverted. I didn’t have a problem with Rex leaving the band (DOWN) because I’m Smart Enough to know that taking care of your HEALTH and your FAMILY comes WAY before touring with a band. (Although I can’t imagine Down with a different drummer!)

I saw Anselmo’s “wife” in and around the club. Not sure if even 10% of the crowd knew who she was, but I did, bc I’m a Creepy Internet Stalker. I joked about taking a picture with her to use to make Anselmo jealous – get his wife to cheat on HIM with ME (Example of the Friendly Teasing I reserve for Anselmo.) But I do regret not stopping her for 2 seconds when she walked right in front of me. Just 2 seconds! to say “Thanks for keeping him alive, and don’t ever dump him. You two will have beautiful babies IF you start cranking them out SOON, because you’re already almost 30.” That would have gone over well, hahahahahahahahaha.

Notice I haven’t talked about the songs, just the people, because, IMHO, that’s what DOWN is all about. Great people! I just stood there at the balcony right above the stage, about 10 feet above keenan, and just enjoyed staring at their faces as they played, doing occasional bower-worshipping air-drums of course.

Best show I have seen from them, simply because they seem healthier and happier. Last time I saw them was in 2003/4 and they were still REAL GOOD, but not as Healthy and Happy I don’t think.

But now that you mention it, the song selection WAS real good. Got spoiled by a setlist Mrs Anselmo taped down while setting up, but was happy to see a lot of songs from Down 1, and the Absolute 100% Ideal Encore/Closer of Stone The Crow + Bury Me In Smoke, the latter of which was performed in a method that melted my frozen black heart: one by one the DOWN guys switched their instruments with people: Mrs Anselmo and haarp guitar on guitars; haarp bass on bass; (I really enjoyed haarp, very pleasantly surprised there, could write another 500 words!) some unknown guy on drums, probably Crew, just a 40-year old balding dork virgin (as opposed to a tatted metal tuffguy), I really appreciated that! They played the classic closing riff while the Down members roamed the stage and hugged everyone and shook hands with the crowd. far cry from 10 years ago soma’d-out anselmo getting mad and storming off the stage scowling. Beautiful ending to a great show. Real uplifting.

Yeah metal fans are redneck idiots, barely-useful idiots for ZOG, and some people were still S’ing Phil’s D after all these years cuz they were too retarded RebelFlag Faggot PanteraFanz to recognize BOWER POWER,and yeah I listen to way more kvlt and underground and serious Metal these days (“Phil THINKS he’s such a Badass, but does he even KNOW Arghoslent? Clandestine Blaze?”), but I can’t imagine ever stopping loving these guys.

ADMITTEDLY a big part of it is due to the connection I made during my Youth, VERY MUCH like the Connection YOUNG Wimminz can make with One Man, which is why if you want a Primary (Nonlegal!) Mate, make sure she’s a YOUNG VIRGIN. Too Manny Cox spoils a Young Girl’s Heart and her ABILITY TO LUV.

Haarp was very good, also each of them were terrifically Nonphony. (And so was Warbeast.) I really liked haarp’s Everyman look: the singer looked like a typical average overcompensating marine douchebag OR a guy who shaves his head bald because he’s balding; obv the latter is more positive! As a man who’s losing his own hair, who loves male hair, and also wrt the importance of Male Hair in Nonphony Metal, it’s nice to see Balding Men play Nonphony Metal (haarp guy, Kirk from Down.) It’s a part of life. We can’t ALL have luscious thick heads of hair at age 40. But he was absolutely electrifying. immediately intense, nonphony, powerful personality and charisma. Cuz it’s really faggy when metal or harsh music performers act all WEIRD. That’s PHONY, FAGGY, and JEWISH. just act NORMAL. (Note: If you’re in a BLACK METAL band, it’s ok to have a “phony” stage persona.)

Unless you can honestly nonphonily become possessed, and this guy “did” that very well, because that’s just How He Performs, he’s not “getting into character.” And that spirit matches their sound: doomy, sludgy, intense, but not sloppy or messy. Long, Epic Doom/Sludge songs that blow the mind. Sorta reminded of Longer Sleep songs, or Om. Just sorta. Darker. Very tense and dark and anxious. During the second 20-minute song (I think they played the entire new album “husks”) the singer went into the crowd and started a memorable Slow Pit. I think pits are faggy as fuck but this was done right. Friendly pit, the fans were friendly to each other and the singer, prob because the band commanded the unanimous response that they were surprisingly GOOD! So yeah I predict their star is on the rise. I will def be looking into that album. It’s RARE I see an opening band I’ve not really heard and think DAMN that was GOOD. usually it’s the EXACT OPPOSITE, you want to SKIP the Opening Bands. So good for haarp, Anselmo has a good find there.

Great time. Nonphony all around. And although 1% of Hipsterish types might be capable of being nonphony (example: wolves in the throne room might wear flannel shirts and have beards and glasses and be marxist fagz, but their music is still good), haarp and warbeast were 0% hipsterish! so, good on that!

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[up to date note: on comments: reached my “october 2012” deadline, when I said I MIGHT open comments. NOPE. Until January 2013, My New Comment Policy is very similar to Lawrence Auster on View From The Right. Don’t even THINK of them as “Comments.” Think of them as “Thoughtful, nice EMAILS.” You can email me at bkctmoap at y mail dot com and then I MIGHT post it if it’s nice and thoughtful, with my response, or as a separate post cuz these things have word limits SON. I appreciate blogs/bloggerz who are Man Enough to allow comments, but it just seems trolly and unproductive in the end. Of course you’re well within your rights send me trolly emails too! Note: I only check that email once a week or so.]

Went to do a Market Research Survey for Pay, I get these once in a while (not enough!). This was interesting because I had to go to the more affluent side of town. Started pinpointing the Outer Limits of Where Jewish People live as I drove the 40 miles or so. 50 years ago they used to live here, until eventually the blacks moved in, then they moved even further in XY direction. Jews may love blacks but they don’t love LIVING with them!

But moreso it was a geographic demonstration of Cognitive Elites and Bigboy Jobs, and obv a little bit of ZOG dashed in as I just described. This is where people with Good Educations and Good Careers Work and Live. Definitely the Top 20%, if you will. Raising their families, perpetuating the cycle of Elite Education and Careerism. (And ZOG, hahaha.) I drove into a more rural outskirt of this “Belmont” to use Charles Murray’s term hahaha and while there were some farms, there were more Housing Developments with RIDICULOUSLY HUGE MANSIONS, not sure if they were McMansions; but HUUUUGE f00king houses on HUUUUGE pieces of land. Houses big enough to house at least 200 hondurans or albanians or blacks or poor white trash. I thought about the Elite Families who lived there: the husbands and wives and x-husbands and x-wives and the educationz and the careers and the children and the boys and girls and teens going off to college, c0q carousel, internships, careers, friends of the family, etc.

I came to the site, a large, well-known Fortune 50 company. A security guard (subcontractor) watched the desk, to get into the proper work area you had to have proper ID. Engineers and Business People, all with Grad Degrees in the field. Everyone under-30 were Asian-Americans certainly with Engineering degrees from elite universities, everyone was making BIG Monay, except for the security subcontractors of course, but they seemed cheerful and chill and were probably doing OKAY at least. (Just pointing out that they certainly did not have LEET DEGREES like the ASIAN ENGINEERS.) And there was little old underachieving lazy loser me doing the market research study because it paid roughly $30 an hour, hell yes I’m gonna do it if the opportunity arises!

I should have Approached one of the under-30 Asians and asked them about their Educations and Internships. Was called in by a 45-year old white guy. Didn’t know if he was Engineering or Marketing, but I assumed Marketing. Real nice guy, SLIGHTLY beta, didn’t seem Scumbag Alpha enough to be Business, but who knows. Forgot to look for a wedding ring. But he mentioned a “brother-in-law” so I assumed he was married. Guys with Bigboy Careers at this company don’t have a lot of trouble Pulling Wives, probably not even the Gameless Asians! (Not that the Wives they’re pulling are not Gold-Diggers, but they can usually get at least a couple heirs out of them…)

Nice guy. Breezed through the study in about 1 hour, got $75. Nice. He mentioned how his BS was Industrial Engineering at a….2.5-Tier Tech University. Not MIT but not so crappy you couldn’t get a GREAT job. “Wow, Nice, pretty hot degree innit” I complimented him. He said there was not a lot of on-campus recruitment for industrial engineers so he went to work in CONCRETE for “8 bucks an hour.” A winter doing that persuaded him to go back to school. He managed to get a Big Company to pay for his schooling for a Masters in STATISTICS at a Univ slightly less prestigious than his undergrad. After that, he was pretty well set. I wanted to ask him for a Resume but chickened out. This little chat got me from the office to the door, and rather than pump him for more Career/Education advice like I should have (I should really be SHADOWING Career Professionals at least Once A Week while I am Underemployed), I thanked him with a firm manly handshake and left, already getting crabby about the drive, as I REALLLLY do not like driving.

I did ask him where he was from, he said from the same general area as myself. Upper Vaisya, no j00z, however at his time it was more upper vaisya, and since then, it has become noticeably lowered due to un-pre-educated immigrants and general Hard Times. Will still take another good 20 years to get totally ruined by blacks though, hahahaha.

He mentioned his brother-in-law who was On The Assembly Line, great lazy loser work if you can get it, but obv that golden goose is long gone. He was “too smart for the line” so he took his buyout money and knocked out a BS in Computer Science at age 42. “It’s never too late!” I affirmed. Now it sounded like he was using the degree in a Good Job with a Good Company. “Good for him!” I said. And I don’t think the guy went to an ELITE University either. “Like a 40 year old Union Shop Rat taking a Buyout can go to a Leet Univ anyway!” laugh the Brahmin ZOG Elites, even though they are supposed to be anti-classist.

Good jobs. Hope these guys have good wives and not total Scumbag Housewives C00nts taking them to the CLEANERS. Raeping them up the 4ss without even the courtesy of a REACHAROUND (was that “Full Metal Jacket”? Prob be using the 4ssraep/Reacharound nomenclature for the next month, hahaha)

Anyway. Not sure if the surrounding gayborhood of Leet Rich Jews and GoodJobbers was technically “Brahmin” according to Moldbug’s definition, but if MY hood is “upper vaisya” as I’ve been saying, then yeah it WOULD be brahmin. That, or my hood is really Lower Vaisya qua moldbug.

A way I like to look at it: Is the land value / home value / real estate value trending UP or DOWN over the next 30 years or long-term or the rest of your foreseeable life? Are Good Careerists willing to move in and school their children in the schools and live there for 30 years? Or do they know right off the bat they would want to Hyperg to somewhere Better?

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