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ok this is MUCH closer to the Average Length I would LIKE to have for posts. YOU’RE WELCOME!

Very Likely ONE of the Reasons Modern Western Men have become Feminized is that there’s NO REASON, NO INCENTIVE to BE MANLY, similar to how there’s No Benefit for a Man to get Married. If you are a Manly Man then people are gonna try to find a way to Exploit That Manliness, which left many Manly Men Spent and Broken and Dead just for Doing the Heretofore-Right-Thing. But now that Wimmin, Employerz, and Gummint are increasingly like Anti-Male Mercenaries, maybe those F@ggy Betas became F@ggy Betas not just because of their Emasculating Single Momz and Skools, but because they saw little hope for them as adults and said “F00K THIS SH!T, BEING A NECKBEARD DWELLER IS BETTER THAN BEING AN HONEST HARDWORKING MAN, MIGHT EVEN BE WORTH THE TRADEOFF OF PVSSY.” But then as a 20 year old virgin, the frustration starts boiling over, and they shoot up skools.

One “compromise” is what I spoke of above, where you just PRETEND to be manly, just enough to get pvssy, and then you spent the rest of your time being a slacker video gamer dweller, hahahaha. Actually this might not be so bad if you can do something honorable, like take care of your Parents in their old age, pay them back for all they’ve done for you. That would be pretty HONORABLE THUS MANLY. Perhaps This Generation has to “Redefine Masculinity,” hahahaha. Yes I KNOW how F@GG0TTY that term is. NO, not Redefine Masculinity that it’s ok for men to cry and ask for help and be feminized, but redefine as in, Be A Man, but don’t let yourself get SCREWED from your manliess. Don’t GIVE your manliness away for Nothing, as thousands of men have before, like millions of Wimmin give their Pure Femininity Away Today. Heh. This is why I like Entrepreneurship. GO AHEAD, BE A 35 Year Old Video Gamer Basement Dweller, BUT you can STILL B4NG Prime Of Youths, NOT be a Fat Neckbeard, have some self-respect, take care of your REAL Family, Make the Basement Look Good, AND try to get Your Own Business Going and Make Monay. In A Way, Entrepreneurship Is A Way of Going Your Own Way.

While I’m proudly confessing my Race Treason, A HUGE song for me lately has been “Jungle Boogie” by Kool & The Gang. There is nothing about that song that is not all about fetishizing miscegenation, from the exhortations to “GET DOWN, GET DOWN!”, and the blubbering ape-noises, and the “SEXY” main hook. Lawd! Lawd! But you can blame 19-year-old BKC for listening to P-Funk and being bit by the Funk Bug. Also blame Seth MarxFarlane for the “American Dad” episode where Stan gets addicted to crack and every time he’s fiending it plays “Jungle Boogie” while little crack pipes bounce in his eyeballs.

even the speakers were not that bad! Jeez.

How’s this for defense of my weak Christianity, the ironic thing being I’m not even Hugely Devout. I go to Church regularly but not very enthusiastically, and occasionally read and watch religious stuff. Anyway: JUDAISM IS A JEWISH RELIGION, WHEREAS CHRISTIANITY IS A WHITE RELIGION. Even IF Christianity is Inherently Jewish, Even IF Europeans were originally pagan, as of RIGHT NOW, most White Europeans are Christian or come from A Christian background. Most Whites are Christian in other words. (Not saying most christians are white though, although at a time they were!) My argument is, Varg Vikernes shouldn’t be such a Big Meanie Against CHRISTIANS, because I argue a Christian call STILL be Antizionist and they can still be friendly to pagans and respect the pagan roots of europeans. Although MANY Christians ARE Zionist and do not respect pagans, so I FEEL ya Varg, but NACALT!!!

Hmm ROBERT BORK just appeared on FOX NEWS, he’s too SERIOUS and Non-neocon to be on FNC. It seems he has DIED. That sucks! Well he was pretty old. But I’m “pretty sure” he was a True Con not a Ziocon/Neocon.

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[That title has “next to nothing” to do with THIS post, which might be more accurately entitled “THE HONOURABLE ALPHA” or “WIMMINZ ARE MERCENARIES AT BEST”, but the other title is more catchy, haha.]

On my Day Off, I Broadened And Deepened my awareness of the New Right by “taking a break” from Counter-Currents and exploring Alternative Right dot com, American Renaissance, and, most memorably for today, Voice Of Reason Radio and Dr David Duke Radio. Found a nice Official Torrent of “My Awakening” which Dr Duke is nicely giving away for free. Anyway Counter-Currents is not THE ONLY “player” out there, but it does seem there is a healthy alliance and cooperation between all of these players. A Growing Coalition of Influence and Power seems Immanent! Imminent.  Heh. Not sure what The Single Biggest Real-Life New Right EVENT is in the US, might be the yearly AmRen convention.

There is also this thing Attack The System which is more Anarchist. I’ve always associated Anarchism with The Left, but I’m learning it might actually more of a Rightist thing. He features a lot of people who were once Huge Leftist Activists who became disenchanted with that, and came over to the Right, and/or Rightist Anarchism. Minarchism? The Tiniest Government possible?

And then there’s Localism and Tribalism and Front-Porch-Ism and Distributism and Third and Fourth Way Economics and a bunch of other interesting stuff. It may be I’m not even a White Nationalist but more of a Front Porch type, where “the state” governs only a small community where everyone knows each other and defends and protects and supports each other. Theoretically this need not even be based on race/ethnicity. Although it certainly CAN be!

Jack Donovan and Mike Polignano were talking about how, when TSHTF / TEOTWAWKI, the Rich would hire Private Security, but paying 10$ an hour for a Rent-A-Cop does not generate Loyalty and Faithfulness and Love and Comraderie and Brotherhood and Trust, not a meaningful Social Bond there. For Warrior-Men to really want to protect you, you have to have a Meaningful Community that goes beyond mere Wage Slavery and Mercenaryhood.

Oh yeah forgot. You could Very Accurately describe Avg Wimminz as MERCENARIES. & you can never TRUST a MERCENARY, hahaha. Or, at worst, LEECHES / PARASITES, hahaha. PROSTITUTES would also be very accurate.

If you wanted to be really hateful, you could also say that Poor Welfare Blacks are also Parasites. Taking More Out than they are Putting In, and “Bell Curve” suggests that there IS NO PLACE/WAY that The Dumb CAN Chip In, even if they WANTED to, and prob even healthy dumbs WANT to, or at least start off wanting to.

As a prospective Computer Science Stemgineer and Professional Geek, I tried to figure out a way to P1r8 a copy of a DVD I got from Zogflix which I could enjoy for posterity on my DVD player (PS2) because I didn’t want to spend 6$ to buy a legit copy of “Crimes and Misdemeanors” (the Jewishness of which is another post altogether!). OK. So you gotta have a program to get past the Encryption/Copyzog protection, for which I used the eminent DVDShrink. So far, so good. Then used Infra Copy or TinyBurn (all open source, or freeware) to actually burn the “VIDEO_TS” decrypted folder of .ifo and .vod whatever filez to the DVD. It played fine as a reg DVD on the computer then played 1 second on the ps2 before failing. This is all after I copied the contents as an .iso disc IMAGE to the HD, then burned the iso to the disc, which did not play whatsoever. It was DUMM to think a dvd player could play an ISO IMAGE, but, this is simply to point out I am not a True Believer Computer Geek like the virgins on 4chan who jerk-off to their computerz day in day out.  I wanted Fast And Easy Solutions.

So after that, I figured, just pay $6 for the proper dvd of the jewmovie.

I heard another interesting point, in the Jack Donovan interview, and another post by Doomdigit on Eradica on Vikings plundering the Orkney Islands, that Wimminz are mating with the Wrong Men: weak beta men who they eventually cheat on with tingly alphas, but don’t have kidz with those alphas, so, insofar as some of beta is genetic, future generations will be more beta. I do NOT agree with this more than 49% Because: I suspect the Wimminz ARE having babies with the alphas, some of which are only being RAISED by the betas. Doomdigit used the comparison of Osama Bin Laden has 20 children, while these True Alpha Vikings, because they were out so busy being Manly Warriors, only had 2 or 3 kidz.

This brings up a Raft – A RAFT!!! – of complicated issues, such as, is OBL a BETA? I would argue he’s an alpha just BECAUSE he has 20 heirs, and his tremendous political/social/cultural influence. He’s on the Wrong Side, he’s Dishonorable, he’s not a Good Man, but he’s prob an Alpha Man. Also, I would suggest that Vikings did a lot of Raeping along with their Pillaging and had many illegitmate heirs. But I could be very wrong here. Perhaps Vikings saw Raep as Dishonorable and preferred to just slaughter the women too.

The SPARTANS get mentioned regularly as a great example of Manly Virtue. Strong Alpha Warriors. Fair enough.

Anyway, I would argue that Today’s Alphas probably do have a signif number of heirs. BUT the Pivotal Issue is, “Alpha” should NOT mean Merely Being Able To Bang A Lot OF Wimminz and Have A Lot of Heirs. Because Black Ghetto Gang Thugs can do that.

Now there’s the argument that Gangs are a way of Men Trying to BE Masculine in a World that denies masculinity.

Or maybe black inner-city gangs are simply a sloppy-4ss form of Masculine Black Nationalism. It’s safe to say they’re racially-conscious in being rather anti-white!

A kind of Warrior they may be, but HONORABLE? Hardly!

So we need more Masculine, Honorable Warriors. Set a new standard for Alpha Males.

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[BKC sept 9, 2012: just to PROVE how much of a TRYHARD I’m NOT, this is an old post written about JUNE 20, 2012, which I SAVED bc I didn’t want to publish more than 800 wds 3 times a week. So now I’m scheduling posts for the month of sept 2012, 3 per week, and reaching back into the tryhardkilling VAULTS for this one. which ultimately gets published on sept 28 2012.]

[sept28: LONG POST WARNING, 1350 wds. Also: won’t sched ENTIRE MONTH in advance anymore prob; now trying one WEEK in advance, & get good MIX of REALLY RECENT and somewhat older posts…but leaning towards the more recent. “Write” too much for own good; abs don’t wanna POST that much!]

WAZZZZZZZAAPPPP, MEN! [Here I come out wearing a Nice Suit and give everyone a Firm Handshake!]

How You Doin FELLAZ? Great to be back again, GRATE-FULL to be here, we are gonna have some FUN TONIGHT!. I’m gonna have some FUN at least, & if you can have 1% of that fun too, then I’ve done my JOB, I’ve been PRODUCTIVE, and successfully combined WORK with FUN.

Never really thought that WOMEN might read, honestly never really thought ANYONE might read until I got A Tweet Recently. Well that’s honestly better than Comments, I might Poop My Pants if I got a comment, cuz it would probably be Snarky or Trolly & I’d have to delete it anyway. So I’m happy with No Comments, I should just BLOCK ALL COMMENTS already.

wasted enough words. 121.

musical guest on show tonight is France’s Own Satan-Loving Teen Wonders, HIRILORN! (pre-Deathspell Omega for non-metal folks. Haven’t sampled yet, but reviews suggest more epic & melodic than DsO’s hateful & orthodox & mathy.) [edit: that’s absolutely right. heh. this post from the vaults thing is like playing with a TIME MACHINE, hahaha. Also I’d now like to bring out Blut Aus Nord. On another show of course. Need at least One Full Season of Shows eh?]

conversation guests are Bernard Chapin, Barbarossaaaa, Stardusk, Armageddon1115, Stardusk, John The Other, Girl Writes What, Typhon Blue, Paul Elam, Heartiste, even some Game whippersnappers: RooshV, BronanTheBarbarian, FreshFlyYoung, Frost, uhh Gmac, Honestly I’ve not been keeping caught up with the Game world as much as MRA & MGTOW, & I’m not even up on those. All Red Pill Men are WELCOME, & OpenMinded BluePillMen of Course.

[edit: I would also have the Eradica “peepz”, Neckbeard Chronicles, & Nydwracu. How bout Moldbug too.]

Special appearances from Mark Steyn & Varg Vikernes. Not to compare those two men, other than I like them both.

Uhh next show we’ll have Alex Kurtagic & the guys from Drudkh, as long as we’re discussing Newish Rightish & Black Metal. [edit: why just kurtagic [ok I was just connecting HIM to DRUDKH thru his record label “Supernal Music” duh], how about some other prominent names from Counter-Currents & Alternative Right. Greg Johnson, Kevin MacDonald, bla bla bla. you can tell this is old haha]

Since I’m the Host, I will also let my Friends come on and talk about things they’re interested in or good at.

No Commercial Breaks, no Irony, no Lamestream Fashion Small Talk, just good clean fun. Would prefer if you dressed up nice and didn’t curse like an underclass “shine-ape” [edit stole that from Ryu, not even sure what it MEANS but it sounds real insulting].

bring together Lars von Trier and Woody Allen to make them do a movie collab.

I might make David Lynch & Gaspar Noe do the same, or at LEAST I’ll just bring them both on and have good talks, good times. I will let David smoke cigarettes on the air like back in the day. Although he better quit soon because he’s too old to be smoking cigarettes, gets riskier at that age.  & my guests can Drink too, just don’t get too sloppy on air.

OK obviously this would be too much for ONE show, this would be a good SEASON’s worth of shows though. You have to agree it would be a SICK show. Never thought of doing a “late night talk show”, thought of doing a “Serious sober radio talk/interview show” but I think I’d also enjoy the FUN aspect of a late-nite talk show, but ALSO plenty of SERIOUS talk. Intermingled with a bit more jokes, though. YOLO after all hahaha.

Anyway it would cause the Entire Lamestream Media to wither and melt away like Ark Ov Covenant. Couldn’t HANDLE so much YOLO or Keeping It Really Real or Smart or Fun or Honour or Honesty.

Can’t bring myself to finish Varg Vikernes’s book “Sorcery and Religion in Ancient Scandinavia”, although YES I felt COMPELLED to buy it cuz of mancrush. Anyway he emphasizes the point that Ancient Scandinavians, unlike Modern JudeochristianIslamic/”Middle Eastern” religions, were not about mendacious pseudo-faux-“Morality”, but about HONOR. Honor was the The Only Real Morality. While I don’t dislike Xians as much as Vikernes, I do appreciate HONOR quite a bit like he does.

Fantasizing: BKCTMOAPGHOW’s Late Night Talk Show will be more SERIOUS than CharlieRose & BookTV & CSPAN combined, AND more FUN than..Craig Ferguson? (ICanTolerateHIM.) Tom Green? Honestly not an expert, don’t usually LIKE LateNiteTalkShows cuz stuff like Fallon & Kimmel EMBODIES EVERYTHING THAT DISGUSTS ME RE LAMESTREAM MEDIA.

MY show WILL set new standards for SERIOUSNESS *AND* FUN. NEW PARADIGM.

Peter Dinklage is Great Actor, certainly deserved his big award for T&C, great in The Station Agent, aGradeAMovie Everyone should see; BUT what I’d REALLY like to see him in is A Serious Drama where his Smallness is NOT a Factor & You can focus mainly on his Acting Skills. Tho StationAgent did VERYAdmirably @ NOT focusing on smallness.

Hope Dinklage is not a HollywoodDemocrat. Adam Baldwin is one of the Celebs that has reputation for NOT being. Minority in that town.

Yes my show will ALSO include Life Advice on Jobs/Careers, Entrepreneurship, Investment, Networking, Dealing w Wimminz, GYOW, any&all. USEFUL.

With Christ, You Only Live….FOREVER! Like a VAMPIRE! Thus, Christians = Vampires, & Nonatheists = Violent Homophobic Misogynist Redneck Idiots. Heheheheh. But seriously folks. This is the diff between 49% & 51% faith. Not really more sure that a God exists or even CAN exist, but you’re more optimistic/hopeful. Even if you’re just doing Pascal’s Wager. Worse reasons to be optimistic.

Though the Provocateur Contrarian in me still wants to Skewer all Sacred Cows & Offend people for the sake of Offense. Blasphemy. But at my 51% faith, I find vocal Atheists more Offensive than vocal Nonatheists, hahaha.

DSM5: Anger Disorder, Laziness Disorder, Apathy Disorder, Output Failure Disorder, Beta Disorder, Loser Disorder, MGTOW Disorder, Herbivore Male Disorder, Not Manning Up Disorder, hahaha. Everything Ever is a Disorder, It’s not your FAULT, you have no Responsibility or Accountability.

I suppose Wimminz are like TERRORISTS in that you’d be wise never to NEGOTIATE with them. Futile. Like Negotiating With An Infant. They Are Idiots. hahaha jk NAWALT

Don’t ever take Wimminz out on “Dates” because other guys have banged it for FREE, so that is her NEW PRICE CEILING. CEIL-LING. That means the price can NEVER go HIGHER than that. CAP.

Corollary: Men are usually very rational & good at knowing a deal vs a screwing EXCEPT when it comes to Pv$$y.

You COULD argue the PRICE of Pv$$y isn’t even UP TO the Wimminz, it’s up to the MARKET (ie, men) & whatever price it will bear. Meaning all those Free Giveaways when Young, Dumb, & Most Beautiful will NOT NECESS set a Price Ceiling. Because she CAN and HAS and WILL get a higher price for it later even when it’s depreciated INTRINSICALLY.

Sucker born every minute, as long as there’s a desperate sucker out there willing to pay more for it…and there usually is.

So yeah maybe she gave it away on Same Day while studying Human Resources, Public Relations, Communications, Marketing, Psychology or Computer Art in College at age 19, but if she can get a handsome rich doctor when she’s 30 to bankroll her Mob Wife Wannabe Celebrity Existence, well, that’s ON HIM, RIGHT?

And also it’s not ALWAYS about money. Sometimes 5 minutes with a Supremely Charismatic Alpha, were we to put a dollar value on it, is worth MORE than 5 years with a financially stable Beta providing unlimited ATM access.

OR, similar to how men’s Deal-recognizing Pathways are short-circuited by Tail, Women’s Money-Greedy-Grubbing Pathways are Short-Circuited by Hypergamy for Alpha Charisma, EVEN WHEN she’s SCREWING HERSELF out of Future MONEY??


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That will be my starting point but I fully intend to go off on a few tangents. I might even talk about Finnish Funeral Doom Metal because I haven’t started my “off-topic” blog yet. Or my YouTube channel, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

Upon listening to Paul and Dr T’s show “Sh!t Tests”, what seemed obvious to me, and which the people weren’t saying but it HAD to be on their minds at least implicitly, was the concept/emo of DESPERATION: How DESPERATE for Pv$$y do you have to be to sacrifice your self-respect and let yourself get taken advantage of?

I was eavesdropping on a conversation the other day where a Young Girl appeared to be debating the merits of Breaking Up with her Boyfriend. I wish I could have gotten more details or even inserted myself in the dialogue without being “CREEPY”, but, it still reminded me of some Power/Life Experience/Demand Differentials and prompted me to recognize a few generalizations that you can either agree with, or get all uppity about:

Regarding Young Couples, it’s USUALLY the woman who DUMPS the man;

The Man USUALLY takes it harder because he has a more pressing fear that he’ll never be able to Pull Pv$$y THAT good ever again, and in many cases, he is RIGHT;

The Woman has a Moral Obligation to Let Him Down Easy;

The Woman wants to Get Out of the Rel more than the Man does; She is less attached/infatuated with him than he is in her; she has invested less than he has; the balance of power tips in HER favour.

These are all slightly different ways of saying the same thing.

Many times, the Woman already has her eye on another Viable Option, if she’s not already sexting photos back and forth with his L04d on her smiling face, hahahahahahahahaha.

“That’s Bitterness! That’s Anger! That’s Little Boy Rage!”

Or that might just be the shrill cry of a short-sighted Sl00t who was burned because she foolishly sexted photos of her with 104d on her face, haha.

But with that “immaturity” out of the way, you can still comprehend my point. The Young Woman has a world of options, and she’s got a case of “The Grass Is Probably Greener”.

The guy, more likely than not, is not “coming” from this same “place” of privilege and has a vested interest in holding on to the “good thing” that he’s got. “Good” in terms of it’s a Beautiful Young Body that keeps him in an Infatuation High. Not Good because she’s giving him the Runaround and Not Respecting him as a Man or even as a Fellow Human Being.

One of my favourite euphemisms for Female Dumping is “I had to LET HIM GO”, as if it’s so PAINFUL for the Woman, but she has to Do The Right Thing for them Both, and both of them will ultimately be happier for it. It’s a Win-Win!

More likely she will be ecstatic in the short-term and he will be crushed and angry and desperate!

I think this all boils down the idea of desperation and options. The man would not be NEARLY so upset if he had a Harem of Options. So what if One Beautiful Young Girl Flakes Out? He’s got others to take her place. Otherwise, the man might feel burned at what he interprets – very ACCURATELY! – at him being REPLACED with a Better Model.  If he has the power – the HAND – to replace HER with a better model, he’s not going to be even 1% as angry. He’ll just keep on doing what he’s been doing: B4nging Young Tail and Winning.

I see this more of a Young Person’s Thing. It’s the difference between Twenty and Thirty between Men and Women. Hopefully by the time he is Thirty, the man will have his Affairs and Life and Career more in order and he too will begin to enjoy the privilege and power of OPTIONS. Enhancing this power is also the fact that Thirty Year Old Women do not have even 1% of the power that Twenty Year Old Girls do. There is a difference in the quality of the SKIN and the FACE and the ATTITUDE that signifies that Father Time has left his inexorable mark. Even if Women do not notice, men most certainly do. Even if they’re not CONSCIOUS of it.

I’m very interested in the idea of The Power Of Options – Sexual CHOICE, in other words – so I like Game Writers like Heartiste who articulate this topic. Of course, Not All Game Writers Are Like That, that’s just a Game-Related interest of mine.

In New Blog, Posts Are About This Long. The type of thing you could give a quick 8-to-10-minute YouTube-length Speech about, so I’ll think about Wrapping it up. I just wanted to Open the topic permanently. I will certainly be discussing it more in the future. Maybe even appending to this very post in the Near future.

One last analogy: You could almost compare it to an Excruciating Job Search. I don’t know Any Man who LOVES the Job Search process. Every part of it is excruciating. But it’s gotta be done. I imagine that once one secured a Halfway Decent Bigboy Job  – although it might not be one’s “Dream Career” that Careerist Wimminz tremble over in hushed tones as if they were in the presence of A Very Sexy Alpha Man-God – but enough to pay the bills and the debt and health care and live in safety outside of an Underclass War Zone, the man might breathe a grateful sigh of relief that he can stop Looking For A New Job, and just focus on doing well at the job that he HAS. He’s already done more than enough Due Diligence and invested enough of himself up to this point. And now Working Hard has become its own reward. The LAST thing he wants to hear is “YOU’RE FIRED!” and then have to start the long hard road all over again from the beginning!

Semi-related is this Eureka Moment I had, where when a Wimminz wants to DUMP a man, they have to NEGOTIATE A CONTRACT which basically includes a Schedule Of “Severance Bangs.” No man is going to take it lightly when the woman essentially says, “You’re immediately cut off, as of right now, from my body, ever again.” Unless he has Options, Hand, Sexual Choice, whatever you want to call it. It would be a lot easier to take (see “Moral Obligation To Let Him Down Easy”) if she said, OK, Since I’m unilaterally ending this and I probably have more options than you – (Essentially She is the Management or “The Employer!” ) – I’m going to Pay Out 50 more Bangs to you, which will end on such and such a date.  (For the sake of example, no sooner than three months in the future. Just because IMHO I think The Fiscal Quarter of Three Months is not too short and not too long and a period of time everybody should be able to live with for most things, hahahahahahaha. Not talking about Cancer or more extreme things of COURSE.)  This would be more Compassionate and Just for the Beta, and I certainly don’t think it would be causing undue Emotional Damage to the Wimminz either.

Yes, this is similar to the notion of Guys “Hooking Up” with Their “Exes”, but I think there’s much more dignity, honor, honesty, justice, etc in the much more unambiguous Contract version outlined above. Yes this is all theoretical because if we could write and enforce contracts like this, we wouldn’t have The Marriage Problem in The West Today. Wouldn’t It Be Nice.

And NO, I’m not speaking from Personal Experience, because I have enough Self-Respect that I will always stand up for Myself even if the Options situation is slightly less-than-ideal – any lack of hand will not coerce me into being a Lickspittle Supplicator! Although I do think, in general, we should have More Sympathy For The Beta, because we’ve all been there or can at least visualize and empathize with Being There.

That’s all for now, Have A Productive, Peaceful, Powerful Day.

And, As Usual, If You don’t have anything NICE to say…..


Pure Narcissism Edit, Next Day: I call it that because this may not add anything Substantive to the original post, but is just me going through my daily writing Preening Ritual: I want to write something, and for a not entirely articulable narcissistic reason, I want to Publish it, although I’m not claiming it’s Awesome Profound writing (although I hope it will be!), so does that still make it Narcissistic?

I would really like to talk about Funeral Doom, specifically Mournful Congregation, but I would also like to talk about something, anything, more “on-topic” first. Because, this is first and foremost, and I should really have a Mission Statement, a Men’s (And Fetuses, haha) CIVIL RIGHTS Blog!

That is my idea of “Humor” or “Comedy”. I was just driving along minding my own business, just trying to get away from the other drivers, when I thought “How’s that for a pickup line for the Bourge Marxist University Activist Pv$$y: I’m a CIVIL RIGHTS ACTIVIST. Or HUMAN RIGHTS ACTIVIST. But just for Men and Fetuses!”

This makes it sound like I care more about Young Tail than I do about Genuine Men’s Rights. That is a unsettling thought, though I admit from the outset that I am abnormally obsessed in Young Tail. This is perhaps what makes me a “Larval” or “Pupae” or “First-Stage” MRA – I’m still too much what Philip Roth in “Portnoy’s Complaint” so pithily termed “Cvnt Crazy” that I can’t see the forest through the trees; my judgment, logic, emotions, and skills are impaired by my Libido; I am a prime candidate for being Brainwashed through my S3xual Desire, etc.

Then I was thinking “Average Modern Western Women Just Don’t Respect Their Uteruses/Uteri.” Though AMWW have the most severe long-term penalties/costs for Sexual Miscalculation, they still seem to act “unnaturally” in favor of the Short Term, ignoring the Long Term Consequences altogether, probably because they have been Enabled in their Poor Choices by: The Average Modern Western Government & Culture & Lamestream (hehe) Media which says they can do no wrong.

But I keep thinking about the Uterus. This Natural Organ is itself a Long-Term Thing, where A Fetus can Grow for 9 months. Yet AMWW are throwing it around like a Horny Young Man Beating-Off into a Sperm Sock: having Babies with extremely “irresponsible” False Alphas.

It sounds like I’m making the Traditionalist, Social Conservative, White Knight, Man Up, Protector/Provider, Captain Save-A-H0 Argument of Women Good, Men Bad; Women are Holy Sacred Cows who must be protected at any cost, and Men are the Brutish Fodder, who, just because Sperm is Cheap and Eggs are Very, Very Expensive, then it only Naturally Follows that Faceless Men should be Lining Up To Die To Protect The Holy Pv$$y, Gladly Sacrificing their Lives, which are clearly Worth much, much less.

Strawman alert! While I do believe Eggs are Much More Expensive than Sperm, and that this IS related to why it’s no big deal for a Boy to Beat-Off 10 times a day & it IS a big deal for Women to Throw Away their Uterus on Thuggish Abandoners, it DOES NOT Follow that I believe Men-As-Humans are Worth Less than Women-As-Humans; on the Human Basis we are Equals. You could have all the Women in the World but you STILL couldn’t produce New Human Life without One Man, One Sperm. In that case, this one sperm would be Priceless, and No One would make the mistake of treating men as Expendable, Disposable, Replaceable Appliances.

As Modern Western Men enter into adulthood, the notion of “Dating” Single Mothers becomes more and more and more of a realistic, and shockingly, even reasonable option. I still avoid doing so on principle. I say Listen To Your Genes. Think With Your Selfish Genes. Many Kind, Loving Beta Men end up Being A Father to Children they have NO Relation To. I’m not saying to Shame these men; to the contrary, I find their Selfless Love very Honourable and Beautiful. But I ALSO Think: Wow, If they’re such a Good Father to a child they’re not even related to, imagine how good of a father they would be to a child that they actually ARE related to! Their Selfless, Sacrificing, Honorable Love has made them DESERVING of a Genetic Heir of their OWN! Yet their time, effort, energy, resources, and love are diverted away from their own genes, and instead used on the genes of the AMWW they’re dating!

I think at this point it becomes more about The Child than the Woman: In other words, No AMWW With Bastard Child is going to be comely and charming and magnetic and infatuation-generating enough to convince even the Kindest Beta Sap to Love Her Kid because SHE’S so awesome. The man is doing it because he has a Good Fatherly Instinct, and my stance is, by that point, he’s Passed The Father Test, and THESE are the kinds of men the AMWW should have had the babies with in the FIRST place.  If they had actually Treated Their Uterus with the Respect it Deserved and really Took the time to Evaluate The Man who was Impregnating Them. They should have Closed Their Legs and Thought for a Minute: Is this man who’s impregnating me Good Long-Term Father Material?

I suppose in those cases, a Good Willy-Nilly Frivolous Abortion might not be such a bad idea. I am still Struggling with my Official Stance on Abortion, this is likely to be Evolving for a while. Although I am probably leaning towards the Pro-Lifer Crowd, hahahaha. But not solely for as much of a Religious Dogmatism as for my rigid SocioBiological Deterministic Dogmatism, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.  Sacred Womb, Golden Uterus, etc.

Reminder that I do want to talk about Chivalry and Troubadours and Courtly Love and the Ideas of Which that started in the Middle Ages with the Arthur Legends and songs and all that. Not today. I’m almost done with my Narcissism Appendment.

Anyway to finish up Today’s Thoughts on Abortion: I think AMWW Are, to put it Simply, Abusing Their Uteri. Really Beating It Up Bad Beyond All Repair. Along with The C0ck Carousel comes the Pregnancy-By-Cads Carousel and the Abortion Carousel, and I’m simply stating my Opinion that the Uterus is something quasi-sacred that should not exposed to Carousels of ANY kind! (But not disproportionately Sacred to Men’s Sperm, or, more accurately I guess, Testicles! )

Of COURSE we have to take Social Class into this, and, rightfully, Charles Murray’s “Coming Apart” has generated fervent discussion in the Manosphere and the larger social/political sphere in the 6 to 9 months since its publication. I haven’t read it, but I watched Murray present the main points of the book on CSPAN Book TV, and have read a lot of Manosphere Analysis onnit, hahahahaha.  Anyway, the point I wanted to throw out there: Are too many of the wrong people Getting Abortions, or, put another way, are the people who “SHOULD BE” Getting Abortions NOT getting them? Are The Underclass Hoi Polloi in Fishtown getting knocked up by Caddish Thugs and then giving birth to babies they can’t support, so they rely on (at best!) The Kindness of Betas, or (more troublingly) an entitlement-happy State? Whereas The Urban Hipster SWPL Bourgeversity-Education “Belmont” types in New York (everyone from “Manjawed Lawyercvnts” to Bon-Iver-Loving Zooey Deschanel Wannabes), who are more likely to be Career-Obsessed and to actually HAVE a Living-Wage Career, are also more likely to Abort the Fetuses, which if they had Carried To Birth, would probably be Less Likely to Rely On The State to Support?

So yes I’m taking these SocioEconomic things into account and not just my Born-Again Catholicism into account when considering abortion.

One last thing for today. I was watching TV, too ADD and angstily libidinous to Read, when I came across a “documentary” on NatGeo about Hasidic Jews, something fairly recent called “Only For God” or “One With God” or something like that. It was an Over 9000-Yard View of a day in the life of “modern” Hasids and left me wanting more, but I found this superficial introduction interesting nonetheless. If I were a Jew I would have made a pretty good Hasid. In particular I remember a Young Man who was born to a Catholic Father and a Jewish Mother. His family life was much more Catholic than Jewish and he went to Catholic Schools until age 18. Then he moved to a Hasidic Community in Brooklyn and jumped in the deep end. Yes it screamed “overcompensation” and “Pendulum swing” but I can relate to that. To an extent.  And then there was a Hasidic Wedding, with a Big Smiling Teddybear Chubby Chumpy Beta Niceguy with a Huge Hasidic Neckbeard getting married to A Nice Religious Jewish Girl (who probably wasn’t as big of a Wh0re as non-Hasidic Jewesses, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! )  My initial reaction was quite positive considering it was a Wedding/Marriage! I especially liked how they kept the men and the women separate at the Reception Party, and then finally lifted the bride and the groom up so they could see each other over the Dividing Curtain. I still have to “process” these Initial Emotions to see if I can find the Deeper Meaning behind them. It probably connects to my newfound appreciation for “Extreme” Religious Devotion and how THAT in turn relates to the Religious, Cultural, and Legal aspects of Mawwaige. Recently I’ve argued that Modern Western Men, should they find in themselves an inexorable desire to marry, that, if they feel they HAVE to appease that urge, to do so ONLY in a Religious/Spiritual sense and NOT in a Legal/State sense.

At any rate, the TV Show was as Superficial and Devoid Of Meaning as you expect from A TV SHOW, but it was better than Wh0redashians, and it did leave me with the lingering feeling that I would probably Get Along Well with these Hasidic Men. Then we could each have 1000 heirs with 1000 18-year-old virgin girls, and Give Thanks To The Lord with Really Solemn Funeral Doom.

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I would like to strike a balance between  an unscripted, off-the-top-of-my-head, stream-of-consciousness, talking-to-the-Youtube-Camera style of rambling, && reasonably coherent, Readable Writing, all while doing a minimum of revision: Being Maximally Readable with a Minimal amount of EFFORT, in other words. Because we are all busy people without a second to waste!

My chosen topic for today is Infatuation, and I will certainly revisit it in the future, as I’ve been consistently interested in over the long-term past; it was a signif topic on my previous blog, and it underscores some of my interest in Game. Recently I’ve been viewing Infatuation through the lens of a Biochemical / Neurochemical Process which produces a panoply of Emotional Results. (Ok I am not succeeding in writing Terse, Hemingwaylike prose!)

In short (TL;DR), In My OPINION, I believe Infatuation is very much like a Drug, and the Oxytocin or Serotonin or Dopamine or Whatever floods the Human Brain whenever the Object Of Infatuation is around, creating an emotional high so potent it feels physical, transcendent, and transformative; but, much like other Drugs, much like The Power Of Young Female Beauty, it contains potential for Awesome Highs and Soul-Crushing Lows, and is thus not a thing to be trifled with. Serious Business.

It’s very probably some men are naturally pre-wired with different tolerance levels to Infatuation, or, as Stardusk so aptly terms it, “Resistance to Kryptonite.” And that we may, at different points in our lives, react to and handle Kryptonite differently.

What I’m getting at is there is a large Emotional Component that seems beyond our control, and as men of Logic and Reason, it can be pretty frustrating when we have trouble Controlling our Emotions Using Logic. What’s going on here. Is our logic faulty? Or is it not Strong enough? Or are We not strong enough? I think part of it has to do with Infatuation itself being so fundamentally powerful – it creates an emotion so strong that it often can get the better of our otherwise super-strong logical faculties, and bring otherwise strong men to their knees.

At worst it can be like a “monkey on the addict’s back” or the “black dog of depression” or the “unwanted parasite”, something dreadful and destructive that’s dug itself into every fibre of your being and you long to be free of. You know you somehow must possess the power to free yourself, through strength of will and intellect, but you clearly haven’t succeeded, because you certainly don’t feel free yet.

It is something that there can be no equivocation about. If it’s there, you know it’s there. No maybes or sort ofs. Just yes or no. Black and white. All or nothing. And this sense of absolute certainty can be both comforting in the good manifestation, and crushing in the bad.

Trying to get to an ultimate Thesis Point here, hahaha: I’d argue that it’s this sense of Infatuation, which obviously is quite synonymous with “Obsession” and “Pedestalization”, which has driven men to Commit and Sacrifice for Certain “Special” women in their lives. It is the Madness which Makes “True Love.” Many say there’s a big difference between Infatuation and “Love”, although I would personally disagree, and suggest that The Terrifying Power of Infatuation is what best lays the foundation for Long-Term Love. Well, between non-blood/genetic relations, of course.

Combine Infatuation with Sex and it becomes even more powerful. Wrap it all up in the package of a Young (18 thru Early Twenties), Fresh-faced, Radiant-Skinned, Low-Mileage, Bright-Eyed, “Angelic” woman, and you get the most powerful combination imaginable, which can easily sustain over the course of a human lifetime.

The vast majority of human beings have to some extent been “burned” by Infatuation Gone Wrong. Some unfortunate souls are even completely destroyed. To me, this points to the fact that Infatuation Is Powerful and must be Respected as Such. Like The Young Fertile Uterus. And we should NOT try to “nurture” this natural force into a new way of being. While what-is-natural-is-not-always-RIGHT — and I think part of The Dignity and Honour of Being Human is rising above our more base, violent, angry, emotional, lustful, short-sighted, selfish animal natures — in other ways we can’t and shouldn’t escape that animal nature; or at least we should use it as A Wise Warning: don’t waste Female Youthful Sexual Power (indeed, Infatuation-making Power) on a C0ck Carousel and call it “Liberated” or “freedom.” And don’t pretend that Infatuation is just some primitive destructive urge that we must ignore or eliminate. We must consciously avoid it when it works to our disadvantage, but also “nurture the nature” when it does work to our advantage. (And yes, that is selfish, so I AM contradicting myself on that thing I said about the dignity in rising above our selfish animal natures.)

Ok, Ok. It’s fine to be selfish as long as we are not HURTING other people in the process.

No I’m not Imposing My Morality, I’m simply Expressing My Moral Opinions, which are strong enough that I would call them Beliefs, hahahahaha. You don’t have to agree with them. But if you DO, then I would probably get along with You better than if You didn’t!

Quick and dirty. The objective of this blog is to write posts in….well, less than 30 minutes!

So that’s my stopping point for today. Simply to express My Opinion that Infatuation is Serious, Powerful, and is going to be an Important and Relevant Topic in My Perspective on MRA & MGTOW & Game & Manosphere & Men’s Issues. You don’t have to LIKE it, there are loads of other Men’s Blogs out there, hahahaha. Have A Good Day and hope You can make Infatuation a Positive (or Neutral!) rather than a Negative force in Your life, as it has been the Starting Point for the downfall of many men. But it doesn’t Have to be.

PS: Does the Strange “Natural” Chemical of Infatuation ever present in Women? If so, might it present in different ways / forms such that it is not even comparable to the way it does in Men, much like how it’s difficult to Compare Men and Women generally in an “apple-to-apples” fashion, since there are such significant biological differences? But this is not to say there are NO similarities between Men and Women, because we are all Human Beings, and so can be compared on Some level….right? More questions than answers.

Anyway, my opinion/belief at the moment, and this is not without considerable reading and experience behind it, is that Women are Infatuated by the power, strength, status, social dominance, charisma, influence, & popularity exemplified by “Alpha” Men,  the way Men are Infatuated by the Angelic Beauty and Seeming Innocence exemplified by YOUNG Women. For the ForeverAlone Omega “lickspittle” Friendzone Orbiter Pedestalizer wondering if Any Women have ever known this same kind of Brutal, Sacrificial, Unreturned Luv, yes, yes they have, but just for much more Alpha Men.

The Force of Infatuation may even be strong enough to compete with Men’s propensity to want to Bang Everything That Moves, and to commit himself to the “Special” Someone. Male Commitment, like Infatuation, like Young Uteri, like Female Sexual Choice, is not something that I like to see people take for granted.

Yet Another Edit: I am not speaking from Present Personal Experience, because Thank G-d I have learned from the Pitfalls of Past Personal Experience, and hopefully You can/do/did as well.

“Final” Edit, Next Day: This is by no means my final word on this topic, just a sign of things to come.

It should have been obvious to me yesterday one of the starkest obviousnesses regarding Infat, of the Orwellian Right In Front Of Our Noses Variety: Infat can give one person tremendous power over another, and this power is rife with opportunities for exploiting and taking advantage of the wieldee. This is probably the single biggest problem of infat. “Ideally”, it would be a two-way street of “mutually assured destruction” where each party’s power over their counterpart would cancel each other out, and both people would be equally attracted to each other almost magnetically, but I’d argue the Unilateral, One-Way, Abuse-Of-Power variety is more prevalent, and this is why infat-on-average can seem like more of a bad thing and less of a good thing.

No Sh!t! (I suspect there will be plenty more Cap’n Obvious to come. I am not such a SPERG that I need to be Schooled In The Obvious, but I do think even Non-Spergs need a gentle, man-friendly reminder from time to time!)

Yet another Edit (May 8) because I am THAT serious about procrastinating even more on my real responsibilities like Work and School and Resume-Building:

All other things being constant, a 20-year-old girl is much more likely to generate infatuation in the man than a 30-year-old woman.

I would be very interested in reading the work of Credentialed Medical and Research Professionals who study Brain Chemicals and Neurotransmitters and Hormones and such, as a way to study Infatuation, especially its relation to The Age Of the Women that Elicit it. And, for that matter, the qualities of the Men who elicit Infatuation in Women. It would have to be as unfettered by Marxist Ideological as can be for academic research, OF COURSE, and maybe I’m just naive in assuming that Medicine and Hard Sciences are more immune to PC, Feminist Cultural Marxism than Bullcrap Social Science Departments.

And again I want to caution against those who say things like “Oh that’s not ‘love’, that’s Just Infatuation.” I suggest that at the end of the day, there’s not as much of a difference as these people would like. I argue love is the glove into which infatuation slips its hand, that infatuation is the bedrock of long-term love, the irrational madness (craziness) that can glue people together for life. Defining terms gets pretty tricky I admit. The bottom line is, my definition of infatuation is that it is Serious Stuff, it’s not “just” anything, people have lost their lives over it, history has been shaped according to it, it’s crazy, it’s very powerful, AND it can sustain over a very long time, and it not necessarily just a short-term thing that lasts a couple of weeks, and I think it does the notion a great disservice when it is portrayed as an insignificant, fleeting thing.

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