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Good afternoon friends, good to see You, hope You are doing well.

Time for another one of these. strictly adhere to 1000 wds. starting….now. ok 1025 or so.

enough jokes. my listening material this week has been Matt Parrott talks to Greg Johnson about the AmRen conference.

h t tp://www . c0unter-currents.com/2013/04/american-renaissance-2013-and-the-new-mantra/

TRYING to hide trackbacks, not because I wanna troll these sites, I just want to keep a low profile until I’m a better White Warrior. Got a lotta personal work to do yet. Get strong, Get courageous. I would HOPE you can figure out how to crack my code.

So that’s a good talk. I like Parrott. Clued me into Bloc Indentitaire in France, had this guy at the conference. nationalist party in france that has not yet been “mainstreamized.”

h t t p:// m a j orityrights.com/weblog/comments/we_are_generation_identitaire

I found this website Whte Ntionalist dot org, Christian Nationalist Forums, run by this guy Pastor Lindstedt, and I am gonna have to spend some time there. He has his own internet radio show too. (Da Dik Dik Show) I am a sucker for talk radio even MORE than blogs. It’s a great Medium. I listen to Pro-White podcasts, talk radio etc for education and

entertainment in case You hadn’t noticed! anyway , the Pastor guy bashes EVERYBODY. He is over the top in calling out just about EVERYBODY I like. Talk about dropping names. You name them, he doesn’t like them. He probably doesn’t even like MINDWEAPON.

Why does he not like so many people so much? why is he so much better? and he calls everyone fggots or mamzers or J-lovers or J’s or cowards or hypocrites or sellouts or traitors or moles or plants.

Now, I do drop names, but mainly just to give you an idea of who I’ve been listening to / reading lately. I might not agree 100% but I’m not gonna bash them unless they’re a total antiwhite J.

Although “San Fagscrisco” is GREAT and I started using that one immediately.


David Duke is coming out with a new book soon. And You Know Who it’s about, hahaha.  I for one am looking forward to it.

I was back on a Dr Pierce thing. I hope you can Love Your Race but not then have to prove it by working 80 hours a week being a White Ethnic Activist like Dr Pierce. Don’t have the energy right now.

Found a website National Alliance News, natallnews dot NET

which might be a sort of dissident national alliance group for people unhappy with the way Natall has gone since Dr Pierces death in 2002 and especially the leadership of gliebe in the past few years.

also see

white reference blogspot

pretty full of information, might be one of the few places WN/Christian Nationalist doesn’t dislike. full of good links. watch out for the widget that displays your city though! that makes me nervous. heh. so run TOR on Tails.

My hypothesis is that maybe these guys were actual NatAll Activists.

Which reminds me,

h ttp://w  w w .  n atvan.com/ i n t e r n e t – r a d i o / i n d e x . h t m l

the national vanguard/alliance site with a ton of podcasts/recordings of american dissident voices. It’s not just the 308 Pierce on Archive.org. It’s ALL Pierce broadcasts, 500 or 600 or so, the Kevin Alfred Strom stuff from 2002

h t tp://w w w.n a tvan.com/internet-radio/ts/080302.mp3

like that’s the memorial one strom did right after dr pierce died.

go take a break, the post got a little long.


there’s the picture of Dr Pierce I was looking for that was not coming up too readily in image search.



. Superior W Body, Superior W Mind, Crush The K’s, W Warrior.




. exercise your BODY, MIND, and SOUL







so that set me off on a strom mission, the guy is a great writer and smart thinker. that whole scandal kinda tarnished him but I’m willing to give him the benefit of the doubt in that I find it completely plausible that he was set up by a combination of vindictive, borderline, crazy wimminz + Zog Fedz.

so then I found strom on youtube and he didn’t have many followers yet, so then he followed me back, and I don’t have many followers. Then I panicked because strom is a big deal, he was friends with Dr Pierce.

heh. I gotta listen to the strom broadcasts, some of em looked real good. Can’t believe it took me so long to find this treasure trove. Maybe because National Alliance is not mentioned a LOT in my Blog World or Podcast World, maybe it is “going downhill” since Pierce died, but at least they have a ton of great podcasts.

h ttp://w w w . n atvan.com/internet-radio/ ts/101803.mp3

“perversion of the sacred”, KAS, 2003, A Show About Sex. Decadence, Libertinism, Prudery, Towards a decent Sexual Morality. NICE.

note to self: to hide the trackbacks / make it not link, put spaces in the HTTP:// part. maybe. but then they can seach that string with that unique placement of spaces and then find this page in google, hahahaha. maybe.

Also I should try not to Name Drop in the TAGS.

Even if I do mostly support these people, I can’t really SUPPORT them in that I can’t ADD to what they’re saying, I’m pretty powerless and n00bish right now. Gimme a few more months. I gotta make more money and WIN first.

Heh. just going down my Recent Bookmarks list and seeing what stands out. talk about GRECYCLING (tm Firepower)! But I care much more about Spreading Information, than HITS! Sharing What I have Learned so that maybe others can learn too. Of course, You prob already know most of this stuff.

there is tension between harold covington and april gaede. she says he threatened her? if so, not cool.

attack the system. this is more an anarchist thing than a white thing, indeed I think they have Nonwhite Writers. but Keith Preston is on Counter-Currents Radio / Voice of Reason. So at least they aren’t Scawed of Us Scawy White Wacists.

OF course, Pastor L would say ALL these people are a bunch of kke fggots!

heh unrelated

h ttp://is it normal .com/story/i-hate-everything-29163/


(I WILL be using this picture again, this one is REAL good. You should use it too. Hope it hasn’t been played out in the chanfagosphere. Doesn’t matter.)

“I Hate Everything” on Is It Normal dot com. I can relate. Been at a Relative Minimum Lately. of course the trolls call him a spoiled trust fund baby who never had to Work For A Living. And the Other Side says You Need Therapy. Yep. Go to a JShrink and Get your MIND Warped by JDrugs. THANKS FOR YOUR HELP.

That’s also my Game Advice of the Post. With an Amused Alpha SMIRK, tell the POY Q2P2T that: “YOU NEED THERAPY.”

Also, “DON’T HATE!” is another great one.

This one For Professional Alphas Only: “CREEPY GIRL IS CREEPY!”

YOU’RE WELCOME. Now you can help Your Own Women DEFILE themselves. Remember, just because they Like getting DEFILED doesn’t mean YOU should LIKE defiling them! Better to avoid! Heh. My “new” argument against “The Poolside Approach.”

Song Of The Post:

“Death Is Not The End”, Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds, 1995ish.

Trying to figure out the guy who sings the “the cities are on fire with the burning flesh of men” verse, thinking its Seeds drummer Thomas Wydler. Because I assume Blixa Bargeld has the blatantly german accent. Anyway this Wydler should become a frontman, his voice is GREAT, and only for ONE LINE. [Note: Wydler is from Switzerland and prob has a German accent too. So Now I’m thinking the burning flesh line IS Blixa. And Wydler DOES have his own Solo Project. not much vocals though. Wydler NOT Wylder. Im Dsilxeci]

The album “Murder Ballads” is all about death and murder and has many great songs. In a pinch, I listen to the first two, “Song Of Joy” and “Stagger Lee”, a one two punch of extraordinary intensity, then skip to “Death Is Not The End”. this is

the album closer which i guess is supposed to be a joke because it’s the only “hopeful, happy” song on the album, with no death….but it kinda is ALL ABOUT DEATH itself. I think it fits PERFECTLY. When I was in a real bad mood it lifted me up.

I did not find the song corny at all, but found it a sincere expression of (controversy) Good Christianity. I realise Christ was a J. I really hope he WASN’T a J. But when you get a real dark day where you are so desperate you are begging to G-d for Mercy and Strength, then this is a profound song. Even on normal days.

The kicker is, Bob Dylan is a KKE. (obvious, but more later.) BUT he went through a Christian phase. Death is not the End came out in 1988 and I think Dylan was in his christian phase. not that he’s still not definitely a Kke! And Cave, I think, is

a Classic Tormented Brooding Catholic, (ie neverkke) and makes this a classic song for other Brooding Tortured Catholics, haha.

Truly f00king beautiful song. I starred it once, then from my Starred Playlist, moved it to a new playlist of the Best Of The Starred Songs. Stars Of The Stars!

Ok I went over. So Go On The Internet And Complain About It. Or quit NECKBEARDING and go outside and enjoy the nice spring weather.

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REAL LONG POST. This is over TWICE as long as my ideal 2013 post. I will only do Long Posts if the whole thing is all on ONE topic.

OKAY, SLUTS. WE GET IT. “NICE GUYS” AREN’T REALLY NICE, THEY’RE CREEPERS. THANKS, I THOUGHT THEY WERE THE NICEST PEOPLE ON EARTH. Big Immature Deluded Dishonest Hypocrites who you do not want to spread your otherwise-readily-spread uterus and 4ss for. NO BIG DEAL. I also do Nice Guy Rehab. I used to be the worst nice guy. Here’s a good gameplan for nice guys who want to break the chains of The Franzone!

* you don’t really like Wimmin, we get that. THAT’S OK! THAT’S RIGHT AND JUST! The guys who BANG Wimmin don’t really like wimmin EITHER! You’d be a FOOL to like such unreliable, immoral, decadent, deluded, stupid, boring, unreedeming, unredeemable, UNLIKEABLE PIGS! It’s RIGHT not to like Wimmin – there’s very little TO like other than their Prime Of Youth Radiant Gleaming Bodies. YOU SHOULDN’T LIKE WIMMIN, and you DON’T, so you’re off to a GREAT start. So just be Honest and Outright. Just Be Your Wimmin-Disliking SELF! Win Win Win! You won’t be labeled a Creepy Niceguy, You’ll be doing what comes naturally, you’ll bang harems of pvssy, and you’ll never fall into the friendzone again! You just gotta WAKE UP to the perfectly reasonable reality that you don’t LIKE wimmin because they’re honestly only rarely something there TO like, and you don’t need to be nice to people you don’t LIKE! Save being nice for people you DO like, like your male friends!

The nice guys who whine about But I treat Girls Nice, but they always choose the guys who treat them bad over me! You don’t like that! You’d be a fool to like that! So just BE that 4sshole! Don’t treat people nice who don’t deserve to be treated nice! Yes! BE That 4sshole and YES you will get your precious pvssy! Just don’t whine about wanting to stay a nice guy. Awaken The 4sshole Within!

Just in case you think I’m oversimplifying: you CAN still be a Nice Guy to your REAL Friends and Family – those who DESERVE it. Who have EARNED it. Because I get it, I used to be a HUGE Nice Guy, but I so glad I Woke Up before I got Old. I haven’t accomplished much in my long life, but I’m grateful to have learned that lesson before too long. And guess what, I still enjoy being nice as hell to the people who deserve it. Not b!tches.

HuffPo F@ggot B!tches going out of their way to hate on nice guys. NIce guys don’t need your hate, and you don’t really want to Fix nice guys. You want nice guys to stay around so you can forever mock them. I want to HELP them STOP being Nice Guys.
Back when I was a Nice Guy, SWPL Sluts hating on nice guys would have made me mad. Now I just laugh. It is a funny site. I laff. But I think the Wimmin Haterz are stupid and I shake my head on behalf of the niceguys and Hope they Learn from my Advice Above. I like them alot more than the 4ssSpreader who runs the site does! I can only imagine all the wimmin who comment “omg yr so right, these nice guys are so really like not nice n stuff.
There’s the Are You A Nice Guy Test Flowchart. Yeah, it’s funny, and it’s true, but the b!tchy tone these b!tches take says a lot more about them than about the niceguys they think are worse than raepists. Good Luck Finding A Good Man To Marry You In Ten Years!

Yes, wimmin “pretty much” are obligated to have S with you because THEY HAVE GIVEN IT UP MANY TIMES FOR A LOT LESS EFFORT! In a just world you would get more bangs than you can handle just by putting in that “due diligence.” It’s not a just world, but here’s the good news: you don’t HAVE To put in due diligence! Just learn a few EASY lessons, namely, TELL wimmin you don’t like them and you only want to use them for S, and then you too will get sh!tloads of bangs by DOING NOTHING! ZEN, MAN!

SO WHAT If nice guys think they deserve sex in return for being nice. THEY’RE RIGHT. They see guys not being nice and getting tons of sex, so they figured if they’re nice, they’ll get even MORE sex! And since they’re predisposed to being nice instead of mean, then win win! Tons of sex, no effort, just being yourself! You’d be stupid if you WEREN’T a Nice Guy for a period. It just makes SENSE. But once you see it doesn’t work, you HAVE to wake up from it as I’ve described above.

Now see that HuffPo with 1000000 comments. The “Nice guy” issue really divides men and women, and makes me glad I’m a man, and makes me VERY GLAD that I choose not to hang out with or talk to women, if THIS is the kinda stuff they say. f00K that sh!t, they’re too annoying to BE AROUND. DON’T HANG OUT WITH WIMMIN, THEY’RE STUPID AND ANNOYING.

One last thing haha: and i’ve said this before. wimmin don’t see a problem with them putting men in the friendzone. They think it’s all the guy’s fault. Heh. I say it’s 80% the Wimmin’s fault for being a Lying Sadistic Selfish B!tch who doesn’t even see the Niceguy as a Human being – she KNOWS she’s STRINGING HIM ALONG, AND SHE LIKES IT! Then she plays dumb, but she knows EXACTLY – if maybe unconsciously – what she’s doing. YES, the guy deserves 20% of the blame because he’s stupid for not saying “f00k this sh!t! You can’t PUT me in the friendzone because I don’t WANT to BE THERE! I’m AUDI 9000!” and then flip the proverbial table. NICE GUYS, BREAKING OUT OF THE FRIENDZONE IS SO EASY! JUST AS EASY AS NOT BEING A NICE GUY!!!

Putting a man who loves you into The Friendzone IS NOT FRIEND BEHAVIOR! FRIENDS DON’T CRUSH FRIENDS SOULS!

So be a NICE GUY to your MALE FRIENDS, they’re your REAL Friends!

One day, Nice guys, you too will see things this clearly. But I tell you what, Regularly Socializing with WIMMIN doesn’t help. I used to socialize with Wimmin a LOT more, and I used to be much more of a Pathetic NIceguy Omega then. YOU NEED TO SPEND SOME TIME AWAY FROM WIMMIN to see them for the stupid, annoying, dishonest, immoral, babykillerz 75% of them in their prime of youth ARE.

ok done with rant. I just learned about that stupid anti nice-guy blog so I had to blog about it, hahahaha.

not quite. So I said songs like “My Girl” Breed Niceguys. You know who else does? VAN MORRISON. BIGTIME. The good news is, Van Morrison is STILL awesome, you can break the chainz of niceguyness and still totes LUV VAN.


Yes I get pretty passionate because I used to BE That guy and I want to save those guys now, but now I am quite cool and detached and don’t get all mad when wimmin throw themselves away and become poison of the soul, I just don’t get poisoned by it. But I can stop other guys from getting poisoned! I don’t even “HATE” “ALL WIMMIN.” I KNOW NAWALT. And there’s a big difference between HATE and DISRESPECT, hahaha.



THINK ABOUT IT: HAVE YOU EVER LEARNED A VALUABLE LESSON FROM A WIMMIN? Has a Wimmin ever TAUGHT you anything? And I’m NOT talking about where YOU learn something about yourself and not letting yourself get WALKED on, because of how shoddy some wimmin was. In those situations you’re teaching YOURSELF and the wimmin is just a catalyst. Bet they’d like to take credit for that one too!

And in the end, you don’t even end up HATING wimmin. I don’t hate wimmin unless they directly hurt my family or children. Wimmin Are Poison only because they are poisoned by living in a world they are not suited for, not MEANT for, and the powers that be telling them it’s GOOD for them, and BETTER than what came before. UM NO, as Wimmin say.

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I “felt” (heh) thereWas a TON of positive hype for this. Didn’t live up. Wanted to really like, but only kinda liked, really had some blatant flaws. Yeah Fassbender as “BRANDON” (heh) is supposed to be “reserved”, but seemed like a copout for him to be Cardboard, Wooden. Although he DOES “act with his face” really well sometimes to show what his character “can’t” say, so. A BIT artsier than Iexpected, BUT not TOO much, and it “comes together” well in pacing&look. Story just wasn’t THAT compelling. It COULD have been MUCH better. Not DESERVING of all THAT good hype. It was ONLY OK. At least not too LONG! And music score pretty good, EVEN THOUGH main theme sounded WAY too much like “Mulholland Drive”, which I mocked initially, but came to enjoy – Sparse Piano SoloVersion during endCredits was notablest.

Usually don’t like “steamy” unrated NC-17 Real Sex movies – too gimmicky and soulless and amoral and SWPL – but I was sold on the “sex addiction” angle. Portrayed pretty well. Especially: (SPOILERS THROUGHOUT!!) when he goes into the bathroom at work and they don’t SHOW him jerking-off like they established a previous time, but now you KNOW he’s not just “going to the bathroom.”

YeahYeah, he’s a Sex Addict and can only express himself Sexually &Emotionally with Pornography &Prostitutes and he’s an Emotional Cripple who’s unable to Relate To Real People. REAL straightforward, but I appreciated no tricks there. McQueen seems to be Honest &Frank, but he also does NOT seem to be CONDONING Brandon’s behavior as “anything goes, everything’s relative.” Probably more like Houellebecq: LAMENTING Alienation&Atomization of Modern World.

I thought Carey Mulligan was REAL cute in “An Education”. Now it’s a few years later, not as cute anymore – HUH. But still very bangable. Liked the trashy bleachblond hair. Did NOT appreciate her getting naked (SPOIL). Forget being a True Artist. Classy Actresses don’t do N00dz. EVAR.

Also didn’t appreciate Fassbender’s Peepee in every scene, THAT seemed gimmicky.

He’s KINDA alpha male because he’s top 20% Handsome – horribly handsome and in good shape. Pretty Women check HIM out on subway. can have any woman he wants. BUT he often scares them away because he’s Socially Awkward &Creepy and his Game is bad. IusuallyThink of Sex Addicts as uglier guys who can’t get sex this easily.

Like his Official Date. He Bombed that with horrible game, ie, Just Being His Honest Self. She was clearly put off &On The Fence, but you’d bet he STILL has a chance to Ream That if he changes his game, just because he’s THAT handsome, so he IS allowed ONE Strike, where nonhandsome AverageGuys get NO Strikes. And he does correct his first mistake (SPOIL), by being sexually aggressive, which is the only effective Game he knows. But when he can’t get it up, (SPOIL) he conveys his frustration very effectively. Though she says “It’s no big deal. It’s ok”, You understand that it’s NOT OK, that THIS is the effect of Male Impotence & Shame, that it IS real, because at this point she’s thinking “This guy’s CRAZY, this is big strike two, no matter how handsome he is, HE’S OUT.” So he lost his chance for regular sex with a regular wimminz (and possibly a stupid relship) just because he couldn’t get it UP the first time. THIS is why men are so terrified of impotence, because this is impotence’s “cost”. Movie portrays this well.

Wimminz: you SAY you don’t mind impotence, but do you REALLY? How many d00dz who couldn’t get it up the first few times have you said “SEEYA CREEPER!” to?

Yeah, he has bad Inner Game because of his Shame. And he’s upset because he’s Blue Pill enough to WANT a Rel with this particular Wimmin, despite his Creepy, Misplaced Admission to her on the date that he didn’t see the point of Rels. Which was a good, smart, RED Pill thing to say, and though the movie is good on portraying him getting punished for impotence, it’s NOT so good in that McQueen may be implyingThat these Red Pill Beliefs are Synonymous with Creepy Bad Sex Addiction, even though I AGREE that Sex Addiction is Creepy and Legit Bad, and McQueen is RIGHT to sayThat THIS is wrong.

BUT: Not ALL People Who Think Hetero Rels Are Generally BS Are Sex Addicts Or Creepy! AND Not ALL Monog Longterm Rels are Stupid…..But When They Are, It’s Usually The Wimminz’s Fault! Maybe Shame 2 can talk about THAT, hahaha. Just a Small Quibble, that is so far Advanced Red Pill I wouldn’t expect Any film to ever tackle it.

OK, long enough, like Fassbender’s Huge Flaccid German Pen15. Also, a German guy cannot believably play an American, no matter how good fake accent. Watchable movie at least, but highly overrated.  Not nearly as good as it SHOULD be, not nearly as Bad as it COULD Be. Final Grade: B. NOT B-plus.

And, while I’m spoiling things, there’s a nice image of an Anus “hidden” in there.

PS: Nondrugalcohol “Addictions” especially Sex &Gambling &Love &People &Infatuation are interesting, if not necessarily “addictions.” IMHO they are close enough. Compelling, Terrifying stuff, although withdrawals won’t KILL you. Like alcohol. I don’t even think HEROIN withdrawals will KILL you. IMHO Drugs and Alcohol are a way to Escape your Unhaaaaaaaappy Reality Thru Intoxication, Stupefication, Sensation-NUMBING. And it’s INTERESTING, the other more “sensation-SEEKING” addictions.

Movie sounds worse on paper than it actually is. Acting, pacing, visual style all bring it together well, &suggest Steve McQueen (change your name!) has some serious potential. But I hope this isn’t his Peak.

PPPS: I understand maybe Brandon’s Careeeeeer isn’t part of the story, but I argue that a person’s Jerb is ALWAYS relevant to the STORY of their LIFE Because that’s what you spend the VAST MAJORITY OF YOUR LIFE DOING. IT IS YOUR LIFE.  That’s why I like to have at least a LITTLE explanation there. Brandon needs to have some SERIOUS Caste Credentials to get a Careeeeeeeer in a Manhattan Marketing Agency. As a general rule, I like it when stories explain how the characters GOT their JOBS. And wouldn’t Brandon’s Autistic Awkward Creepiness get in the way of him Schmoozing into a Schmoozy Industry, the same way it defeats his Natural Handsomeness &becomes a Dealbreaker w Wimminz?

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Very Hot Day for some of us, try not too be too much of a tryhard today.

This post was written about one week ago and dives right into the middle of some Fresh New Themes I’ll be talking about in other posts, such as “Career-Is-God” Career-Worshipping Tryhards who elevate their MEEEEEEEEEANINGFUL CAREEEEEEEEEEEEER to far and away the most important thing in their lives. Because they are Narcissistic, Sociopathic, Blasphemous, Materialistic Tryhards who don’t know how to Relate To Other People, Or to Their Higher Power (haha.) I also reveal the identity of my latest Mancrush.

Heh. The REAL HBD people will go around mentioning the name of actual genes which “explain” a certain behaviour. Like oh that’s clearly coming from the R5GH34T7 Haplotype which is concentrated in this area of the world haha. Don’t know my Genetics well enough. Trust me its in my Future Hard Sciences Curriculum. $5 5-year-old Textbook from amazon haha.

gotta strengthen argument that its even more “silly/stupid” to Worship Career than it is to Worship God, after strengthening arg that Wimminz/Millennials are indeed treating Careers as Religions.

Well basically you’re coyly, indirectly worshipping yourself, and there’s no room for Failure. “God” might not exist, but He still accepts your failure as part of your Humanity. He doesn’t want you to be a Tryhard who attempts to take His place. And He wants to Help you. Dunno. Still in the beginning phases here haha. Just Note that I will never try to Proselytize or Evangelize. Not for a few years at least! I respect the diversity of my Treasured Readers! You can be a Hardcore Atheist ALL DAY just as long as you’re not all SMUG like the f4gg0ts on Reddit!

MY Excuse for my “underachievement, output failure, procrastination, amotivation” is 50% DerpRession & 50% Morally-Shamable Laziness. 50/50. The HIGHEST I will grant out on the Moral Laziness is 50%. The End.

See, if a Guy Feeeeeeels like he’s a Loser, that will reflect in his Confidence, and ultimately he will never get Tail. Well, IF he does it’ll be Sh!t-Pv$$y & he won’t like it one bit. Because Young Hot Tail is a Religion/God, haha, it’s very important that Men not feel like Losers!

But srsly, it’s not good for a man’s Personal Health to feel like a Loser. So HOW to Not Be a Loser, or at least not FEEEEEEL like a Loser (even though I USUALLY think FEEEEEEEELINGS are ret4rted, but not in this case) ? Here I bring back our disgraced child-molesting laziness expert Dr Levine. People like to feel they’re accomplishing something worthwhile to them, and they also like getting praised by others for it. Even if he molested 9000 boys, I still agree w Levine.

Rank in terms of How Silly is it to Worship-____-Like-In-A-Religion: God, Career, Young Tail. IMHO, from Least Silly to Most, ie, Best Idea Getting Worse: God, Young Tail way below God, Career way below Tail. What else can we add.

Wimminz mock and diss Men for not manning up & playing video games & not being marriage material, but a large reason Men are doing this is because it’s a BETTER DEAL than spending time with Wimminz! Video Games provide A Consistent, Satisfying Reward Schedule! Wimminz Don’t! BLAME YOURSELVES, WIMMINZ!

Yes, listening to violence, raep, torture, death, mutilation, aids, slavery, cancery, child abuse, slavery, 3g1h, Blown-Out 4N41/Rectal Prolapse (PROLAPSE is the word I was looking for! Don’t even go to the Wikipedia page! Gross!), degradation, sadism, evil worship of The Power Electronics Genre is good for Channeling & Releasing, ie, Getting Rid Of, Anger & Negative Emo. Argubly the “Darkest” form of Music Out There.

I just have MANCRUSH on Mikko Aspa. Going through Top Power Electronics Albums on RateYourMusic. Whitehouse’s “Bird Seed” “Out-Nicole12’s Nicole12”, thought that was funny. Sampled some of latest Nicole12, also some Sutcliffe Jugend, & some Grunt. Maybe I like the Subject Matter more than the actual Music. An Interesting Aesthetic. TABOO. Watching the NatGeo show Taboo joking “THAT’s NOT TABOO!” like Taboo:Booze & a bunch of drunks getting into a fight. True Taboo seems like the stuff many PE Artists deal with, all that HORRIBLE stuff.

Maybe Mikko is just an EPHEBOPHILE but he feels STIGMA of Society telling him he’s a sick paedophile. Or very possible he just likes making Music about Sick Things. Again, I would THINK most PE Artists have a Moral Opinion on their disgusting subject matter. Maybe a way of Releasing their own disgusting, taboo, shameful thoughts, without needing to ACT on them. Separating the THOUGHT from the ACTION from the PERSON from the ENDORSEMENT.

Possible Rebuttal to my “Wimminz Worship CareerAsGod” Hypoth: NO, they DON’T, they’re just taking HEALTHY INTEREST in SIGNIFICANT PORTION OF THEIR LIVES. It just SEEMS TO ME that they “WORSHIP” it bc IAMA LOSER who doesn’t like WORKING or TRYING hard.

Is that an Ad Hominem? Really it just attacks my def of “worship” vs “normal healthy nonworshipful reasonably prioritized interest.”

You can’t say “Gimme A Job Because Everybody Needs A Job”. You gotta Have Career FOCUS. and DEMONSTRATE why you are THE BEST PERSON for the Position AND the Organization because being A Human Resources Middle Manager in THIS Player In The Hospitality Industry is an INTEGRAL PART OF EVERY FIBRE OF YOUR BEING!

R1mming 455 for free as Gopher B1tch Boy & begging to be Free Intern, Paying to Svck D1ck isn’t CAREER-WORSHIP, it’s just MANDATORY MINIMUM for getting a RESPECTABLE JOB. Like, if you ever want to Pull, Own A House, Have Children, or Associate with people who aren’t Drug-Addict LOSERS. It’s simply Doing What Humans DO: ADAPTING OR DYING.

I’m BLOWING IT OUT OF PROPORTION because it SEEMS so different from my INFERIOR perspective, so I’m trying to SHAME THEM when it’s ME who should be shamed!

But you gotta be careful about self-deprecation, because that not only pushes away stupid sh1t like Young Tail, but Important, Essential Stuff-you-want like Bigboy Employers and Male Friends!

Feel an Appropriate sense of SHAME, then WORK to FIX THE PROBLEM, THEN once you get that balancing act PERFECT you can FINALLY be within your rights to pull Young Tail, otherwise you never will, & will only pull Gross Seacows At Best & Never stop Obsessing about Better Young Tail!

PERFECT example of BENEFITS of PORNOGRAPHY: Effective&Efficient Release of THAT kind of Nervous Sexual Stress, which DISTRACTS you from PRODUCTIVE (“Meeeeeeeeeaningful”) WORK.

Healthy people stay BUSY. You think Mikko Aspa sits around and MOPES all day or even Molests Innocent Young Ephebes? NO! he spends 16 hours EVERY DAY running his record Labels, Doing Mail-Order, (If you order something from Northern Heritage / Freak Animal, he’s prob the one wrapping it up and mailing it to you!) Record Store, & Working on 10 different Musical Projects! I don’t know HOW he stays so Productive!


for example, the cover art for Nicole 12’s most recent album “Black Line” IMHO perfectly captures the “creepy horribleness” of N12 & PE in General:

That’s Just Not Right, Amirite?

credit: guy on Nuclear War Now forum


I don’t think you’re a Creep, Mikko, And I would be happy to buy you Dinner, Dranks, & sth from Your Store next time I’m in LAHTI, FINLAND! Would also like to do a Fancy-But-Fun Interview/Convo for my “Late Night With BKC” Talkshow, and Collaborate with You on One Perverted, Disgusting Song. OPEN INVITE!


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Anger is associated with men moreso than with women. If any emotion were “allowed” to men, it would be anger. Allowed, but not approved. While anger is seen as immature and violent (why does anger NEED to be “violent”?) and ineffectual and unjustified, it’s still more “manly” and “strong” than feeling weak or sad or lonely or afraid. Then you’re just a weak f4gg0t who can’t stand up for himself and get things DONE and Own Your Sh!t and Be Accountable for your actions.

There is “justified” anger – the righteous indignation you feel when you witness true injustice. And then there is “unjustified”, immature, “little boy” rage that you may feel when you don’t get Your Way.

Men who want to be Heterosexual with women – and many men do – but who fail miserably, never really getting what they want, may be initially attracted to Game, as it seems to teach them a skill to fulfill a rather immediate, pressing, serious want.

Full-Blown, Self-Identified MRAs and MGTOWs are GENERALLY more attuned to Structural Injustices and broader societal and historical trends of Misandry, than are some of the more myopic students of Game, who seemed to be obsessed with Young Tail even more than I am, or at least voice little concern over anything BUT Young Tail.

I fully understand and empathize with the “little boy rage” of the Gamers, and would like to remove the shaming and stigma attached to this “lesser” form of anger. While I don’t think being angry about “not being able to get laid” has the same level of seriousness as being angry about men’s LIVES being DESTROYED on the job, on the battlefield, or in the family courts, I think Anger-over-Sexual-Rejection still has significantly more legitimacy than its detractors claim.

There is a ton of shame heaped on Betas. Lots of patronization. Not just from Feminists who think Game is Misogynist, but from Regular Women who think Betas (and Game itself) are creepy (“Creepy” will almost certainly be a future post, hahaha), to male game-deniers who see all Game-Readers as short-sighted Pv$$y-Beggars, to the Alphas the Betas idolize. Shame, like Anger, CAN be a good motivator, but too much of it can be destructive. The “best” is when you get shamed for BEING angry, because you’re “too angry”, and for the “wrong reasons”. Methinks the Shamers have never experienced Intense Anger and how debilitating it can make one. When you are really really Angry, you are no good to no one. You can’t get anything done. Nothing. So yeah I guess I can understand how Anger gets portrayed as a pathology.

Rambling in circles again. Is it because I’m too angry? Maybe. I do often struggle with anger, and I can attest that it can become overwhelming and not productive or motivating or usable.

For example, it’s valid, understandable, and even “reasonable” to feel anger when you are rejected, taken advantage of, or simply don’t get what you want.  I think framing it as “little boy rage over not getting what the little baby wants” is a STRAWMAN, because even a little child is far less angry for far less time when his parent says “no ice cream for you!” than when one person rejects another.  That’s a difference in KIND as well as in degree: The next day the child is no longer mad about the ice cream, probably because he knows he will have ice cream again soon anyway, and it will be sweeeeeeet. Being rejected by another person is a bit like being told you’re just not good enough as a person, and you never will be. That kind of Stings more than the ice cream, especially if your interest was anything more than just purely sexual, for example infatuation, or you’d deluded yourself into thinking you respected them as a person.

I argue men are, on the average, much MUCH more intimately familiar with this kind of rejection and disappointment than are women. If women had to put up with as much rejection and failure and disappointment and loss as did men, they might be killing themselves in equal proportion to men rather than just dramatically attempting suicide for show.

Of course, a moody depressed woman will still have much more access to the potential pleasure of sex than a moody, depressed man! Note: I am NOT suggesting that moody depressed women go out and have lots of sex, because that will still make you a whore. Go to a shrink, preferably one who believes in “right” and “wrong.” Yes, this may very well be a privilege not available to you. In that case, you can still Notpray All Day to some sort of Nogod. That is likely to have a positive effect if you do it enough. Try repeating this mantra to yourself as many times throughout the day as you need: “Lord Nogod, please help me. Please give me strength to get through this day, and have mercy on my nosoul.” Over and over and over again.

So my point before I got angry was, Rejection sucks and can lead to great anger and instead of getting support and compassion, men are shamed for their anger and just pushed deeper into anger, and then if they “snap” and do something violent, then people conclude that anger ALWAYS CAUSES to violence, anger IS violence, and other nonsense. Its one of those Nuanced Arguments where the Nuances can get too easily confused. I can see how and why people confuse Anger and Violence. But I think that’s a grave miscalculation. A Serious Miscorrelation.

Anger for being Rejected by your Wife and separated from your kids and taken to the Cleaners and Living The Rest of your life in Debtor’s Prison is much, much worse than anger for getting rejected by Cute Young Girls for Sex. But I wonder if some of those in the second group don’t eventually become part of the first group. It’s their own damn fault, though, for being Gameless Betas and letting people walk all over them, isn’t it? True, they have SOME responsibility for that, but I’d place at LEAST 70% of the blame upon the person who does the walking-on. They should really know better.

I recall reading a comment thread somewhere – I know Alek Novy was involved – either at Heartiste or AVfM, where someone did a Venn Diagram of MRA and Game proponents. This might have been during the dust-up of MRA “vs” Game when Paul did his “Chateau Bullsh!t” article and related radio show. I was kinda provoked at that time, and I was a little disappointed in Paul, because I, the bridge-builder, enjoy BOTH AVfM AND Heartiste. Was that because I was a YOUNG man, or at least young enough that my Hormones were raging enough for me to be Obsessed with Young Tail? (But: I can feel myself getting Old, and I am STILL obsessed with Young Tail!)

I’m too lazy to go back and find exactly what was said, but I’d place myself in the intersection of that Venn Diagram. I started out on Game, but then I “graduated” to MRA and MGTOW, however I never fully abandoned Game either. Right now I’m trying to do a synthesis of the entire thing. I want Young Tail AND I want fairness for men in the courts, in society, in the media, and I’ll throw a Mantrum if I don’t get what I want!!!

The good news is that we can Bounce Back from rejection, dust ourselves off and try again as the saying goes; what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, etc etc. I’ve never been a big fan of platitudes but sometimes they’re true. Except when they’re false, except when what doesn’t kill you just makes you weaker and weaker and then eventually the straw breaks the camel’s back, you get a flat tire and then you fall into a psychotic crying weak beta heap in the middle of the street like Crazy Old Nietzsche defending the poor abused horse hahahahaha. But seriously folks. Facing Adversity and Rejection and Just Keeping Living can be a great character-builder, I firmly believe. It makes you a better person, and that’s better than the Hottest Young Tail!

Or is it?

Game, as I view it, isn’t some complicated, esoteric set of routines, and it’s certainly nothing new that was invented as a solution to the “new problem” of Feminism-Empowered Entitled “Average Modern Western Women”. It’s simply charisma and confidence. Good social skills. No big “Mystery” there, hahahahaha. However, it is surprising How MANY Men have Such Below Average Social Skills. Unless, of course, the True Average is NOT to mate. The Real Average is to Have Social Skills So Crappy you’re Unable To Pull Tail. And it may be true (heh, “weasel words”) that, in the Environment of Evolution, 80% of Males died without leaving heirs, and 20% of males – the true alphas – spread their seed among harems of many, many women, and we are the legacy of those very few men combined with those multifarious women. The vast majority of men died alone, angry, afraid, and absolutely Young Tail-less, and so too will they today. Alone and afraid often go hand-in-hand with angry. And Tail-less.

“Mmm-hmm! That just goes to show you WHY anger is sooooo BAD! You push others away with your insecurity!”

I admit  I do have a Pet Peeve for Women who Give Advice. 100% of the time – even more of the time than Most Women ARE “Like That” – even when A Woman gives WELL-INTENDED advice – it comes across as Patronizing and is ultimately less than useless – it’s insulting and angering. Especially when it’s Women advising you on Anger, or How To Change Yourself To Be More Attractive to Women. How about you just STFU because you have NO idea and your opinion is Stupid and Naive and Immature and Insecure and Deluded. The person who does NO Work telling the person who does ALL the work how they should Work Better. Give me a break. How about not being such an Obnoxious B!tch.

Times like that, I will get angry enough to use the B Word!

If Bouncing back from Rejection builds character, and women get rejected far, far less than men, does it follow that women on average have much less “character” than men? I wouldn’t necessarily say that. You can be privileged and Unrejected and still not be an a55 about it! For example, I am the textbook definition of a Privileged White Male, and I try never to forget it. (Yes, I’m aware that much of MRA is about pointing out how Male Privilege is not much of a Privilege. I’m just speaking in terms of personally having a Good Family and Opportunities for College and Career Success. I take full blame/accountability for all the mistakes I’ve made in my life which have brought me to the lowly status I’m at now.)

Men generally place higher value on Honor and Respectability and Morality and Ethics than Average Modern Western Women (AMWW). You can Respect your biological privilege/power of being able to choose your desired mate exactly by not choosing every possible mate and sampling the Schlongasbord during your halcyon days. This is just as “creepy” as George Sodini in a Trenchcoat walking down the street and whipping his Dong out and jerking-off with a big leer to every woman he sees.

Violence is Inherently Wrong. Anger is NOT inherently wrong. Anger does not CAUSE violence or even necessarily LEAD to violence. I argue a very specific combination of anger, ignorance, and evil/immorality leads to violence.  (Yeah I WILL break out the “E” word!) Shaming the Angry as Potentially Violent is just a way to make their legitimate concerns appear illegitimate. This is very low-down, dishonest, dishonorable and disrespectful, and We Don’t Like It.

Those men who do have individual Sexual Frustration IN ADDITION TO “More Valid Anger” about The Broader Issues are in a particularly precarious Shame Triangle, because their opponents will say they’re JUST/MERELY Little Boys Angry That They Can’t Get Laid but they’re too Stubborn and Arrogant to Think “Gee The Common Denominator Here Is Me, Maybe It’s ME who needs to change”, etc etc ad nauseum.

So should those who DO have Sexual Frustration Go Out Of Their Way to DENY they have ANY Anger over that?

I don’t think so.

But I am currently wrestling RIGHT NOW with the notion that the tasteless “jokes” I sometimes make on Twitter wrongly make MRA’s Look Like Women Haters and Women-Violencers. And I do not want to do that to My Brothers. It could be like handing Our Heads to Feminists on a silver platter, and I definitely don’t want to do that, no matter how much I personally enjoy and laugh at Horrible, Evil Jokes about everything from Raeping Women to Gassing J3ws to Eating Babies to Molesting Children to Enslaving and Lynching Blacks, etc.

The best I can PROMISE you right now is that I will try not to make “hateful”, evil jokes every single day, or without a great deal of Thought behind them. Serious, Blogworthy Thought.

But I will NOT promise to not say crude things like “I’ll only b4ng a fat girl if she’s 23 or younger and has a young-looking face and skin.”

I’m honestly flexible on this. I suppose if an MRA I really respected, like Uncle Bern or Barbarossaaaa, messaged me “Stop making childish jokes, it makes us all look bad, it paints us all as violent idiots and sets the whole MRM back”, then I probably would stop.

I’m not gonna lie, when I was listening to the April 2012 AVfM show “All MRAs Are Privileged, Angry White Cis Men”  (not exact title; but great show as always!) I was thunderstruck when they announced the next caller was Barbarossaaaa. I cheered like my favourite sports team made a huge win. He’s one of my favourite MRAs and I’d not-so-secretly hoped he’d be a guest on AVfM one day, and I was/am really happy when I learned he was on a May Episode of AVfM’s new News/Activism show with James Huff & Robert O’Hara. I just didn’t know he had called in to one of AVfM’s other episodes at an earlier time. But it only makes SENSE. All of AVfM’s radio shows are great. I had taken a little hiatus from listening for a few months and I’m glad I stopped that hiatus.

While I do enjoy the Diversity of Opinion and Fierce Independence of MGTOWs, I also enjoy seeing a group of the strongest voices get together and talk. There was a very nice Espirit De Corps when I heard John, Girl, Typhon, and Barb conversing. Naturally in my Fantasy MRA All-Star Radio Show I add Bern and Heartiste to the conversation.

I realize this is pretty far from my starting topic of Anger, but honestly this post got off to a rough start, hahahahaha.

(I will NOT stop saying “hahahahahahaha” even if it sounds “Unprofessional” or “Unserious”, because even though We Are A Serious Movement, I and probably most other men appreciate a sense of humor, and it can be hard to convey a light tone through Sarcasm, or if your Jokes are bad, so I simply say “hahahahahahaha” not as a way to say “don’t take us seriously” but as a way to say “don’t take LIFE so seriously, have a sense of humor sometimes, or you’ll turn into a famously frumpy humorless feminist.” Hopefully everyone has had the experience of having at least one Friend in their lives (usually male!) who always comes across as cheerful, who always puts you in a better mood just by being around them, who is often laughing at their own jokes even if they’re not particularly funny, but not in an arrogant “I’m smarter than you” way, because he always laughs at everybody’s jokes, and improves the lives of everyone around him. I would like to be That Guy. A Real Good Guy Greg. At least with this blog. Since I naturally have a habit of being Debbie Downer in Real Life.)

This blog is a work in progress. Right now I see myself as “practicing” writing, so I don’t – and “The Readership” SHOULDN’T – expect it to be real good at the moment. I haven’t written blogs in a long time. I’m not entirely sure where this one is going to end up, but I know that I DON’T want it to turn into me whining Too Much like an Emotional Beta about my Personal Failures. However I DO feel a need to address my personal emotions to SOME extent, and it’s challenging finding the ideal balance there. But I will TRY to tie them in with Men/Manosphere/MRM. Because I do think it would be short-sighted to claim that powerful emotions such as Infatuation and Anger have NO RELEVANCE to Men. These emotions can be Bad if we don’t Manage them, but they’re not INHERENTLY bad and should NOT be ignored, denied, or shamed.

And regarding SHAMING, I just wanted to say that Slut-Shaming is FAR more appropriate and effective than Beta-Shaming. Betas are inherently more respectable and honorable than Sluts. Betas are not going around with the trenchcoat exposing themselves to every woman they see. Betas are simply trying and repeatedly failing to get a little action for once in their foreveralone lives. Betas need support, encouragement, help, and yes platonic LOVE from other men who have been there, not scorn and shame from Alphas Who Now Pound Piggish Pv$$y but were once whining, pathetic Beta Virgins themselves.

I’m all for Tough Love and Trial By Fire, but I think a little more Soft Love and a lot less Scorn and Shame from MEN towards OTHER MEN would be pretty damn helpful.

And, Sexual Frustration is Valid Frustration and, in generally, Women should just STFU about it and stop trying to give “advice” or commentary because it’s just obnoxious and annoying. Far more so than my tasteless joke tweets.

Things are gonna be a little disorganized and focused and scattershot around here in the start, so just expect that. However I DO expect my writing/this blog to Get Better in the Medium-Term future. Just Gimme 3 Months, hahahaha.

I was listening to AVfM Radio “Telling the truth about boys” show and the show closed with a very relevant and powerful remark from Typhon Blue: LISTEN to your anger. When Paul asked her what advice she would give to boys on how to educate and train them for The World Of Women, for which Media and School and Society and even well-meaning Families do not fully prepare them. Listen To Your Anger. Your anger is an alert system telling you that something’s WRONG, and you would be smart to believe it. Use your anger to help you find what’s wrong and then try to solve that problem or protect yourself from it. Don’t ignore it, don’t think it’s a false flag. More likely that not, your anger is your Gut telling you that something IS wrong and unjust and potentially harmful. So don’t get harmed. Protect yourself and know that you are WORTH protecting. Don’t let your Hormones steer you into sacrificing your self-respect, integrity, and safety.

Very often we think of Logic Versus Emotion, as if they are Enemies, and Logic must Conquer Emotion every time (Well, I often leap to that conclusion!) but the bottom line is that both Logic AND Emotion can serve us well when balanced properly. A little Anger can save our lives. A little Infatuation can bond us to a mating partner and help us stay Faithful. But you have to have Logic to know when you’re getting a Raw Deal. Like Barbarossaaaa says, men are pretty good at knowing when they’re getting a deal and when they’re getting screwed. The problem is when men keep going back to get screwed, even when deep down they KNOW they’re getting screwed, because their emotions overcome their logic.

I do think the current “rift” in which people are taking issue with Rocking Mr E’s MRA+ is a little bit overblown and it will blow over. I agree partially with RME that Love Between Men and Women CAN exist and can be a beautiful, positive emotion, but I also agree with Barbarossaaaa and Stardusk that Women are predisposed to be more selfish than men and that the odds are stacked against men and to Bet On Love is a Fool’s Errand and that even if you have it good, things could go very bad overnight and you could be permanently screwed, so Know The Risks, and most of the time, the Risk Isn’t Worth The Reward. But RME is a great guy so let’s not pile-on him, hahahahaha.

I find it amusing and somewhat discouraging that MRA/MGTOW YouTube videos are filled with comments with MRA’s arguing viciously with each other over religion, politics, race, how selfish are women naturally, game, relationships, and people become Internet Tuff Guys even worse than I do. I could understand if they were ridiculing a Feminist Troll, but I think, in general, MRAs should give other MRAs a little more slack & be more civil and laugh away any personal disagreements because, at the end of the day, as MRAs, as Men, we have a LOT more in common than we don’t.



Attractive Women have a Moral Obligation to know they are Attractive and to act respectfully with that power, and their Parents have a Moral Obligation to Teach them how to do that.

Leonard Cohen is a tremendous, inspiring, beautiful, transformative, transcendent man.

Black MRAs are Powerful!

PS: I’ve always been wary of Comments, because I hate being criticized! It sounds too much like the Wimminly Advice I described above. When I leave comments, it’s not usually to troll, and usually to give support to the writer. If I disagree with anything they said, then I will say it as nicely as possible. If my disagreement is really significant, then I just won’t say anything at all, as more likely than not, our ideological differences will not be settled by any amount of arguing. If the difference of opinion annoys me enough, I’ll just stop reading the blog.

Basically this me saying that if I get a comment I don’t like, I’ll delete it.  Especially if it’s a Wimminz saying something annoying and pedantic and advicey.

Not that I anticipate a lot of comments. I don’t WANT a lot of comments!

What if anger-as-an-alert-system is just trying to tell us that our Anger Itself is misplaced? That our alert system is Broken, like a Little Boy who doesn’t get his Ice Cream and then gets really really angry for days and weeks and months and years? Well then you can get a whole lotta Xanax and just say “OKAY” passively whenever women withdraw their S3x from you so they can give it to More Alpha men.


LATER EDIT: just ignore this, I’m rambling about Caffeine and Leonard Cohen and no MRA stuff, hahahahahaha. I may end up deleting this because Being A Big Leonard Cohen Fan is something that I am easily Real-Life-Identifiable as.

I enjoy writing every day but sometimes the stuff does not really warrant a new post as it is not really on any topic. Or it may be related to the last topic. Or I just don’t want to have a new post. Like today, where I simply wanted to express Thanks and Gratitude to The Cosmos (hehehe) for having a day off and doing absolutely nothing but sleeping, drinking a nice mix of Iced Tea + Diet Mt Dew, a little modification of The Arnold Palmer which I do not have a name for yet. Normally I get up early and drink a lot of coffee all day long. With the sudden blessing of being able to sleep, I have indeed slept, and avoided Coffee for about 30 hours, unheard of. Took a Tylenol to assuage a small headache, but nothing excruciating. Still a sense of being tired and having no energy though. This is nothing new, so usually I Chug An Ocean of Coffee to make myself do what I need to do during the day. But with nothing to do, a First World Privilege if there ever was one, I decided to “detox” from Coffee for a few days while I had that luxury. I did not find a wave of energy in its place, rather, I just slept ALL DAY and went to bed at 6pm. On This, Day 2 of “vacation”, I still felt tired after a full night of sleep. So I “broke down” and got a little caffeine in the form of the “Super Arnold Palmer.”

And this has absolutely nothing to do with Men’s Rights. I was thinking about making a Second Blog for non-Men’s Rights things.

I have always been a big Tom Waits fan and also a big Leonard Cohen Fan. To me, these Singer-Songwriters deserve just as much recognition as “the mainstream” gives Bob Dylan. I don’t hate Bob Dylan, he just comes in at – at most – third place here. Usually I had always ranked Waits above Cohen, but these days I’m finding I’m ranking Cohen above Waits. Going back and listening to all the Cohen albums I’d not given enough attention: “Recent Songs,” “Death of a Ladies Man”, “Various Positions”, “New Skin for the Old Ceremony”, actually, a good 40% of Cohen’s Oeuvre I’m not as familiar with as I should be. All this is probably brought on by Cohen’s new 2012 album “Old Ideas”, which may just be Classic Cohen. The big problem with Bob Dylan is his inconsistency. If every album he made was as good as “Blonde on Blonde” or his first 4 or 5 albums, then he wouldn’t be at such a distant third place for me. Not that I’m crapping on Dylan’s newer albums either. His old-man voice sounds great. I guess Cohen just speaks to me more personally, and even his “inconsistent” albums are growers. Maybe it has to do with him taking at least 4 years between each album.

And I’ve never been a fan of Lyrics for some reason, I just rarely pay attention to lyrics. Maybe it’s my pessimistic view of musicians, and I don’t think they should try to be “poets” too. Pick one or the other because you can’t possibly be good at both. Obviously I don’t feel this way about Cohen. What I really like is how the first verse of lyrics starts off real simple and straightforward and even banal, but then as the song unfolds, he blows that theme wide open and says something spine-chillingly profound, but still related to the foundation he sets in the beginning. The first song on “Old Ideas” def does this.  Maybe even “Hallelujah” or “Suzanne” arguably.

So I’m thankful I “discovered” that new album “Old Ideas”, it got me back on a pretty serious Cohen kick. I’d like him to live forever and keep making new albums, but really we’re fortunate to get this one, it was uncertain whether he would ever make an album of new songs after “Ten New Songs.” And he’s 75 or 76.  Anyway I hope he lives to 120 and makes a dozen more albums. I was also clued into a recent live album called “Songs From The Road” (classic Cohen album title eh?) which was released after the magnificent “Live In London” and features that same Hot Band. (Many of which have been playing with Cohen since the 70s!)  But included some songs which were noticeably missing from LiL, namely, “Avalanche”, “Famous Blue Raincoat”, “Chelsea Hotel”, “The Partisan”, and, possibly my favourite, “Waiting for the Miracle.” I’ve never disliked that song but until I heard this live version I wouldn’t think of putting it on the same level as those previous songs. This Version gives the song the treatment it deserves, really breathes new life into it.

Back in the Day I preferred Old Cohen to New Cohen because it sounded more Organic and I thought he sounded better with the Old Bob Dylan style production of just a man and a guitar. When he incorporated a band, it was often overproduced, to my ears, in a “Cheesy 80s” sense, and was a bit off-putting. Live In London and Songs From The Road present a full-band approach to the material that is much more timeless, giving me a new appreciation for the stuff that may have “suffered” with a “dated” production on the studio versions. Of course now I can go back & listen to those albums and they sound fine. But it’s also amazing how a guy with a reputation for being an “intimate singer-sognwriter” can put on such a great live show with band.

And now I’m reminded of the semi-recent “Isle of Wight” live album which was pulled out of the vaults, and that was Solid too. That was no more recent than about 1974 (checked: 1970), close to his “Live Songs”, his first official Live Album, early 70s. Those sounded great too. I guess the man can do absolutely no wrong in my opinion.

Heh. So my “underrated” Cohen Songs Of The Moment Are:

“Waiting For The Miracle” (live 2010ish)

“Tennessee Waltz” (included on 2004ish album “Dear Heather”, but a live track recorded in 1990s I THINK)

“Sing Another Song, Boys” (included on Songs Of Love And Hate but clearly a Live recording from early 70s, proving, as on “Live Cohen”, he still put on a Sick Show back then)

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I felt compelled, possibly divinely, to post a twitlonger as a way to develop, enhance, expound, expand, ENLARGE hahaha on the broad strokes made by my twitter. In keeping with the off the cuff microblogging approach of twitter, I would like to cut myself off at about 15 minutes and not check the spelling or whatnot. just real fast dump. this TLDR wall of text approach will also discourage any would-be career killers from reading too much and killing my (future, haha) career. As anonymity and privacy was one of the reasons I retired my previous Blog (almost a year ago!) but I do like writing bloggishly. The problem was that too many personal details had gradually crept in. The blog is still out there for people who are obsessionally infatuated in me and contains a ton of great non-personal commentary, but it is private and your email address has to be approved by me on an individual basis!

First, Men’s rights, Game, Misandry, manosphere issues. As an erstwhile Pv$$y Addict, I will be concerned with the “Micro”-Sexual issues of men vs. women for a long time to come, and here my arguments are in a large part formed in dialogue with the ideas presented by much better writers, namely Heartiste / Citizen Renegade / Roissy. This is not to say I am in 100% agreement with him or sheopleishly parrot all his ideas. But 70%? Probably!

Kinda stream of consciousness this will be. Now a full-blown MGTOW like Barbarossa views Heartiste as a lame “PICK UP ARTIST” and SLAVE to Pu55y. I’m not sure you could call Barb “anti-game”, and anti-game does get talked about a lot on Game blogs like Heartiste, and not favourably as You might surmise. A guy like Alek Novy, a notable “Anti-Gamer”, is ruthlessly mocked. I don’t think all this man-on-man mockery is superproductive to the manosphere as a whole. Can’t we all just get along? I really like Barbarossa but I really like Heartiste too. At least Heartiste isn’t lamely trying to SELL A PRODUCT, those are the guys I have very little respect for and would reserve the term “pick up artist” as a pejoriative for them. As opposed to guys who study and write on “GAME”, which I view as basically male/female attraction, male charisma and social power, what is “attractive”, mate values, sexual selection, the same thing Darwin talked about, drawing from evolutionary psychology, human bio diversity, softer and harder sciences alike.

Definition of terms can be problematic.

I might need 20 minutes, he11 this could be an hour but I dont WANT to go longer than 20 minutes so Im just gonna take a 1000 yard view.

My top manosphere guys have been largely Youtube fellows because I personally prefer listening to reading, although I like to read when I have the attention span. (In the middle of “America Alone” by Mark Steyn (total mancrush on his ridiculously charismatic personality!) and “Life at the bottom” by Theodore Dalrymple and a little of “Flipside of feminism” by Venker/Schlafly and “Why men are the way they are” by warren farrel and a bit of “Day bang” by roosh v and trying to start “The long march” by roger kimball, i think that’s all at the moment. I rarely FINISH books or read them cover to cover quickly. If I’m reading it will be those books, or blogs, namely heartiste, gucci little piggy / chuck rudd, in mala fide & ferdiand bardamu (waiting for that book man!), reddits, various fora, some of a voice for men, etc.

But as I say, my preferred method is chilling out and listening to people talk on my mp3 player, for which I use a grabber to download mp3 audios of youtube videos, and my top people there are, first and foremost, Bernard Chapin my eternal mancrush, barbarossa, Stardusk and Rocking Mr E have been welcome newcomers, Girl Writes What who deserves 15 minutes of me talking about her hahaha, John the Other, The Ignored Gender is also a fantastic new guy I’ve just discovered. I could talk a lot more on each of those guys, but I don’t have a lot of time, those guys are all more or less 70% in my ballpark of ideas.

Yesterday for example I listed to a Stardusk video where he was responding to Rocking Mr E, and I like and respect both of those guys mind you, but Stardusk is more “extreme” and more MGTOW and thinks relations with women are unsustainable from a natural, biological, evolutionary perspective: it’s not merely political, it’s not so much right and left and libertarian, sure politics MATTERs, but as a CATALYST that takes a NATURAL impulse of hypergamy, disposability, parasitism, and enhances it and rewards it and perpetuates it, and even if you go to a non-feminist culture, if you bring a woman from say saudi arabia to sweden for example, the feminist culture will encourage the worst tendencies of the female to emerge, no matter where she was raised.

I’m not as MGTOW as Stardusk and I’m closer to Rocking Mr E, who himself seems to enjoy a happy rel with his wife, and I am glad for him.

But then too I AM interested in concepts like “relationship game”, which HEartiste discussed but for that you really need to go read Athol Kay I’m told. But I’m not super DUPER interested in Relationship Game as of yet.

Uhh Girl Writes What IS as amazing as she’s been hyped up to be, and I think it’s interesting that one of the fastest-growing stars in the MRM is indeed a woman, and PERHAPS this speaks to the idea that women are not oppressed by a patriarchy, that overall we are more willing to listen to The Issues Of Men when they are presented by a woman. Lots of the Male MRAs are lumped in with “women-haters” indeed the SLPC just released their intelligence report which used standard leftist propaganda sources to shamefully character assassinate many prominent and not-so-prominent mras and gamers as VIOLENT HATERS. They drew largely off the writings of Manboobz David Futrelle, pretty notorious, and while you do have big names like Roosh and AVfM on there, I was really really surprised that Heartiste did not make the list. Either way the list is a pile of crap and I’ve given it more time than it’s worth.

listening to tons of black metal, no surprise, but still trying to keep the black metal fresh to me. haven’t listened to the new burzum as much as i’d thought. enjoying lots of weakling and mgla. different kinds of black metal each, but both have astounding, amazing, underrated drummers. yes you can have drumming standouts in black metal I’ve learned. of course I could talk about these topics for hours too but I wont.

Personally my intense interests are in the ideas of alpha and beta, and Darwinian Struggle To Survive, applied to my own life, with moments of great self-doubt that I am much more beta than alpha and that I don’t have the energy or the work ethic or the anti-laziness to be able to work my a55 off and pull myself up and pay my dues and put in my due diligence and keep my eyes on the prize to finally, at long last, become a Bigboy with a Bigboy job, finally have the resources and respect to be an Independent Man, finally have a Bargaining Chip to pull Young Tail, etc. Yes I said Young tail. Maybe that is one of my tragic flaws, but I’d argue self-doubt and laziness are the much more significant tragic flaws hahaha. this has been what’s drawn me more towards game and evopsych, because I am much more likely to be “interested” in younger women as opposed to older women, and IMHO, the Mating Peak occurs no later than the EARLY Twenties. If that makes me a creep, I am very comfortable with that, and I’m not interested in dialoguing with Rationalization Hamsters.

Criticism is not hate or anger or “creepiness”, however I admit that I have had to keep an eye on my anger, as I am prone to get angry moreso than a more “alpha” male, hahaha, which perhaps comes from a sense of “beta” powerlessness. Sometimes my judgement and criticism is so fervent that it does border on anger. Of course Righteous Indignation variant of Anger is OK, because its ok to be angry about Valid Injustice, but at any rate, you can’t let it be The Boss Of You, hahahaha.

perhaps most controversial has been my “pendulum swing” from left to right, from atheist to Born Again Hallelujah. of course this is not wholly the case, there are important nuances there which much be understood. I am better described as an Agnostic with a newfound Appreciation and Respect for some Religious Traditions, although I don’t think one could ever discover tangible or even philosophical PROOF of a god. I am however, have become comfortable with “going through the motions” of giving thanks to a god, because it seems to me so much less SMUG and ANNOYING and FIRST WORLD and PRIVILEGED and SWPL to be able to stop whining and be THANKFUL for the good things you DO have rather than just say either “yup i did all that” or “well it’s just an accident of me being born in a first world country” or what have you. Of course, I guess if you HAVE achieved a comfortable life and livelihood through Hard Work, you ARE Deserving to be PROUD of your hard work, I know I would be. So maybe when I am a Big455 winner making the big bucks at my STEM job then I will become a reborn again flaming atheist at age 60, hahahaha.

but doubt and sloth jeopardize that as well in this dark night of my educational soul. i’ve never LIKED school but I’ve always done disproportionately WELL in it with respect to my not really liking it. Eventually that caught up to me and I stopped caring and just skated by at the bare minimum, which was a big poor choice I made, for which I’m now paying the consequences, and which, if I were a religious man, I’d be praying to the lord to help me actively repent for, I, do a 180 and bust my a55 now. Which I sorta AM trying to do, I’ve indeed made some positive changes. But right now I’m stuck on Computer Science 2 (for example, the idea of Templates and the Standard Template Library in C++), and I think jeez if I’m finding this so hard, there’s like 6 more years to go of even HARDER stuff, plus people who are REALLY into this, like paid bigboy computer scientists, spend their free time LOOKING AT CODE FOR FUN and posting on code forums and I get stuck on Day 1 concepts and would rather sleep or listen to Bernard Chapin and theorize on alpha and beta and sexual marketplace and mating and harems and cost benefits of male female interactions and manosphere and feminism and young tail and all that sexy stuff.

So i’ve already gave away too many personal details, hahaha. but as I say, i’ve never been in love with school, which is why it was techinically a good decision not to try to get a phd, even if that was my own rationalization hamster for the brutual truth of I Didn’t Work Hard Enough When I Had My Big Chance to even be ABLE to do a phd. At any rate, my preferred phd would probably be in Evopsych and mating stuff, david buss, roy baumeister, all that stuff. that or just straight up hardcore STEM, hahaha. but getting the STEM bachelors is challenging enough.

see i view education and school as a means to an end, a key to a job, a paycheck. pay your dues then you can finally get paid, get paid enough to survive AND to spread your seed, leave a genetic legacy, etc. Yeah eventually I would like to mate and reproduce and my end of that bargain is that I do gotta be a provider in some sense. However at this point I just want to be able to provide for myself in a respectable manner. separating the bigboys from the littleboys, those who don’t want to work hard enough to survive, etc.

my advice to young men: do trade education while in high school, work your a55 off so you can do well in that and have a company pay for your STEM degree, or join the military, get some $$ to pay for a STEM degree, learn Alpha Charisma Leadership Power in the military, get a useful degree AND just as importantly get Good Experience while you do it, make yourself so marketable the employers come to YOU with your useful STEM knowledge and experience, ?????, profit, mate. Whether you want to have a traditionally monogamous rel or a harem is up to you. Although it’s probably not a good idea to get Legally Married in case your wife goes batty and decides to Take You To The Cleaners and then you’ve lost a huge part of what you’ve worked so, so, so, so hard for. Maybe have a primary “wife” which is the one you’re in “love” with the most (strongest infatuation or obsession or sense of commitment, can’t live without balblablabla), get nonlegally married to her and she can be your primary babymaker if you want heirs, and who DOESN’T hahahaha, and then if you want a harem on the side, that’s gonna be a negotiation you’re gonna have to work out with her. Just get your g0dd4mn STEM degree (and concurrent internships!) first.

have a fun week, i’ve already said way too much, i might do this again in a year or so since I want to minimize the privacy risks of having An Official Blog. Either way I am prone to make ridiculous tweets in the vein of LeviathanPride, ForTweetsSake, IanSquirtus, etc, cause I think that sort of stuff is real funny. But I will never seriously endorse violence of any kind, even “emotional violence”, hahaha. http://tl.gd/h02p32 ·

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